livejournal...wow. it sure has been a spell. well, i figure, since absolutely, and quite literally, no one ever reads this anymore, this can be a great place for me to write. i cant write in journals because since i do hair, and a lot of other things involving my hands (art, guitar, ect.) my hand cramps up really easily. but typing? i can go all ( Read more... )

oh how things have changed...

i havent written in here in forever, like REALLY written ( Read more... )

my life is a fucking joke.
i have nothing.
the love of my life doesn't want anything to do with me.
my father loses his job.
i feel like everything is fucking coming down on me.
i dont know what to do.
i have no fucking clue what to do.

i love him
and he loves me
thats all you need to know right now

i never post anymore. not because i dont think anyone will read it, i dont even write in my real journal anymore. i guess im too busy doing pretty much nothing to sit down and write. or maybe things are so confusing and not how i want them, that im too embarresed about them to put them into words for the world to read, let alone, myself. i think ( Read more... )

is it my fault to think i could do better than this ( Read more... )

it seems like every month, i find something else out that upsets me so much about him. and every month i forgive him because i want this to work so fucking bad. i just dont understand it, and im trying to understand it. a comment that i thought he would only say to ME "i want your body" was something he left some other girl (that has a BODY that is ( Read more... )

i doubt anyone that relates to this situation enough to get pissed at me is going to read this, so here it goes ( Read more... )

i have never felt this way ( Read more... )