is it my fault?

[my_final_moment]

is it my fault to think i could do better than this?
is it my fault to think that we should be more than what we are?
is it my fault that i feel like you should love me by now?
is it my fault that you don't?
is it my fault that i don't feel like i matter?
is it my fault that you don't care if i do or not?
is it my fault that you seem like you are hiding so much from me?
and if you are,
is it my fault?
because for the longest time, whenever things go wrong,
i always seem to take the blame.
it always ends up being something that i try to fix,
asthough, it is my fault.
i let you take advantage of my money, my time, my heart, my love, my body...
and whenever you get mad at me,
i make it my fault.
i'm sick of chasing you when you decide to get up and leave for no reason,
so if this makes you run to your car,
then just leave.
i'm not going to run you down anymore,
i'm not going to beg you to stay anymore,
i'm not going out of my way anymore,
not for you.
is it my fault that i like to be around you?
is it my fault that we only get along good half the time?
is it my fault that i am realizing all these things,
and still staying by your side?
is it my fault that i don't say anything to you?
is it my fault because i keep it all inside?
or maybe i know in the end you arent worth the fight,
is it my fault that you aren't worth the fight?
i find myself not caring anymore,
if you go or if you stay.
whatever you choose is what you choose,
it's fine by me.
because i feel like you should love me.
and if you don't love me,
then i can't love you.
thats just the way it is these days.
love has turned into a bad thing.
is it my fault that loving me seems like a bad thing?