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Last night
I was exaused last night and totally looking forward to sleeping. Then I had a night full of bad dreams and memories that chased me. Most of my dreams reflected that; me running.
Now I need another 7 hours of sleep.
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mom incoming
My mom is coming to visit me for the first time in years and for the first time since I have been living with Izzi much less living in NYC. To boot she is actually staying with me ( Read more... ) -
Fun times
Last night Sandra, Izzi and I went Gothic clubbing. It was a blast. I havent had a chance to dress up in such a long time ( Read more... ) -
Weekends pass to fast
and it sucks.
I want more. -
Do you really want to know?
My focus is a bit, nonexistent…. Right now. I am having a hell of a time trying to work especially given the amazing amount of crap I have to do right now. I am basically working 2 different jobs and still pulling the most numbers for the team in each roll. It’s crazy to the point of being ridiculous and I may have to make some serious changes ( Read more... ) -
The guilt on my chest
The last few weeks, well perhaps months this feeling of guilt has been chasing me around like crazy. The last 2 days it has been so bad that i feel like i can't breath or even live. It hurts and i dont know how to have an outlet for it. I have never been all that great of actually dealing with emotions. Yesterday i couldnt focus, i couldnt think ( Read more... ) -
alive
feeling a bit more even now that i am home again. thank fucking god! -
i am a survior
i was raped. i was molested. i survived it. all of it ( Read more... ) -
dreaming
been dreaming left and right the last few weeks. feels like there has rarely been a night where i havent ( Read more... ) -
heading up town
whew, i am feeling better! F I N A L Y ( Read more... )