So farr - 1 weetabix, 80 mls ff soya milk, sprinkle sugar, 1/2 glass of juice, ryve bread with golden syrup - 300kcal
300 star jumps

 Gah, so massive massive massive.

Hope I can do muscle from fat replacement soon :(

It seems that, despite munching about 2000 per day, my emoty-stomach-in-the-morning weight has gone from 43.1kg to 42.5kg in about 4 days. Yay. Please god let it be from the upper arms!

Burnt 373 kcals walking around the natural history museum yesterday - it's awesome in there! And I came back with a soft t-rex haha!

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What the hell is wrong with me?
I never got to go on Saturday - I lost 0.3kg, eating 1850 kcal per day. How does that work, when I maintained the week previously on 1500?
And even now, in between controlled over-eating and restricting when i feel guilty for trying hard, I've still averaged 1850 over 8 days. I can't get my head around gaining, and I' ( Read more... )

And so, if I gain weight by Tuesday, I'm allowed to the audition. My daily intake has gone from 1400 to 1800. 
 It makes me want to cry and smile at the same time. I need to gain weight, otherwise I won't be allowed anything. 
So why is it so hard?

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oh god
i hate FREAKIN' DOCTORS and FREAKING MEALPLANS and FUCKING FOOOOD!
Averaging 1500 a day. 
I'M GOING TO BE OBESE.

Coping with it all in my head is so draining... but if I don't gain 'out' then I'll have to gain 'in' if you get my drift.....*sniff* Basically there's no way around it. I can't even refuse to go to clinic on Tuesdays.

Discharge
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1500 yesterday
1200 the day before
1300 the day before that

GOD I HATE MYSELF

Avg. daily intake: 1334

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!