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I did it
I txted G last night. I said, "We shared three years of fun, amazing and sex times together and I hope one day we can stop avoiding each other and be friends ( Read more... ) -
an update
things have been going well in my life ( Read more... ) -
Merry Christmas
Well Christmas was okay. It was weird last night because Gid and Ben came to my family's Christmas Eve. Gid just stopped by and ate, while Ben stayed and hung out and played Beer Pong. That was fun, I got good and drunk for christmas eve. I got some good stuff I wanted but not that much because tomorrow we're leaving for THE MALL OF AMERICA. ( Read more... ) -
Merry Christmas eve
So yea we're definitely rocking beer pong at the christmas even fam party tonight
I'mma gunna dominate.
G has been there the past two years, it's going ot suck with out him there, but oh well. Last night I went out with Don. on a meijer's run and then we got food and drinks at Old Chicago. Got good and drunk and it was a blast.
went to the doctor ( Read more... ) -
A new day
Well I had a good time, I ate really really well and didn't have any sweets but one resses peanut butter. Doing well exercising as well ( Read more... ) -
Nothing like Family...
I'm trapped in the middle of nowhere at my aunts house, so we can celebrate christmas at the grents tomorrow. It sucks. Though my cousin T offered to break G's legs, but I declined. The thing is, it wasn't a joke. He would have no issue doing it cuz he's from Lansing.
Anyway, my eating is getting better. Today the only carbs I had was a plain ( Read more... ) -
I remember
I remember the day we first said I love you, its every detail ( Read more... ) -
Day Three
So today I started keeping a journal. Of everything, grief over G, grief over my Dad, my pain in the ass mother. I'm sure that some of my friends are sick of hearing me talk about it already, and I know some aren't. It's kind of just coming up as verbal garbage and I'm used to talking to G about everytime I'm upset. I'm just so blind sided, I'm ( Read more... ) -
second in a day
Never in my life did I expect that a song by Pink would become my life mantra. (You give Love a Bad Name is also in the running)
Life suxors as usual. Being at work was hard but okay at the same time. Everyone at work pretty much found out and they were nice to me, and when I could contain myself and started crying, Lindsey just shut the door and ( Read more... ) -
its all falling apart
I've had two anxiety attacks today, one was damn near close to becoming a full on panic attack. Part of my control strategies were thinking things out A,B,C....instead of jumping from A to Z. The problem is that my A thought is "The guy you love just broke your heart" it doesn't really matter what B thru Z is. They just suck ( Read more... )