HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.......So what else is new. Today has been a great week so far. I won 150$ in the football pool Im in..I'm also in second place for the 500$ prize..SWEET!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't have to pay off my T.V. anymore since  help the guy so much he told me not to worry about it. Then I plug the cable in at my house and find out that it ( Read more... )

Yea so I feel good. Not really any idea why but I do. Bored at work, as usual. I think I feel like I'm back in control I guess. When your emotions sometimes get the best of you it feels as if you have no way to control how you feel even if you want to.  Human nature, and not all of us live the same way. So many people try to tell others what works ( Read more... )

The best I have felt in a little while anyway. Well stress and thinking about shit wise...I never knew being COMPLETLY honest was so hard. But it is, but it feels much better....I got so many things off my chest that I need to tell somone anyone, and it felt great to have a friend that truly seems genuine for once, still if I've learned anything it ( Read more... )

So...umm yea stuck at work bored as hell. Working nights blows. Hardly anyone awake and nothing going on.....I wish someone would try and break into a car so I could beat their ass. So I realized part of my problem, which I think may be a HUGE part. I'm lonley, HAHAHA and I already know how that sounds....aww poor me. Nah. Well yea but..haha not ( Read more... )

Things are so weird, how you can go changing feelings from day to day. Today was a good day. The first day of changing myself. Although I was not able to accomplish most of what I wanted, Good things happened today. Which is more than I can say for any other day. I learned to day that there are people out there who fee like I do. Ecven though I may ( Read more... )

All I ate was a bag of cheez-its all day and i realized that I was hungry. Since learning I was hungry I thought hey...things aren't so bad....I then thought that these years that I am living right now are the best years of my life. Why should I ever feel the way I have the past few days. Granted it's just a right now type thing haha but I'd have ( Read more... )

It's weird how your feelings can be so differently from day to day ( Read more... )

So many things in life are not always as they seem,
Even so it doesn't matter I will always dream.

Wheather it be happiness,love,or acceptance which I seek,
The real truth deep down is I will never be weak.

For I am all that I have, this I have learned,
Yet this is only because of, all the times I have been burned.

Quite literally in fact, from the ( Read more... )

 Wow, I forgot about this thing. It is so many years later. So much that has gone on. So much that has changed and left. So many different new stable feelings. Becoming ones self is so much a  fun adventure. All the new experiences and people that we meet everday. Everyday is a challege in one which to I arise.  Never again to be held by the chains ( Read more... )

People really suck. I find the funniest thing is that people will do things for you like there is nothing expected in return. then when you don't think you owe them anything they fuck you hard. Like real hard in the ass. Them make up some really shitty excuse saying its not you.Ha they just can't admit that they are pissed at you for sometihng and ( Read more... )