Misery of MEEEEEEEEEEEE.............
Things are so weird, how you can go changing feelings from day to day. Today was a good day. The first day of changing myself. Although I was not able to accomplish most of what I wanted, Good things happened today. Which is more than I can say for any other day. I learned to day that there are people out there who fee like I do. Ecven though I may have gone through these things earlier than the poeple I am reffering too, It is nice to be able to understand that somone else has had these feeling at one point or another. Although the future is unclear, it doesn't mean that the present has to be. I have also understood that even though I am always right, it may not be always for the same reasons that I think. Even so, the truth always coems out. It would be nice to know the truth from the jump but that would make things too easy, I don't understand why peoplw make something like the truth so complicated, but I guess that's their bad. People like that i think eventually get what they give. Still, what a great feeling to know that I am not alone. Although it would be nice to have a few more friends who are like myself, only time can tell I guess. I'm just glad I don't feel like I did the past few days...not saying I am cured but I will say that I have made a step in the right direction, and if i could just keep making those steps it would be great. In the meanwhile I think I will do what I can for others who DESERVE IT. I'm so done with putting effort into people who never give anything in return.....Tonight was a good night with hopefully many more to follow...even though i am at work......