I shouldn't be allowed to drink.

ich brauche es nicht jeden Tag zu haben. aber ich brauche zumindest die Möglichkeit es jeden Tag haben zu können.

I'm feeling rather disillusioned with life right now. Nothing seems to be going right, and otherwise some things just don't seem to be very fair. I guess we'll just have to see what the consultant has to say about that tomorrow. Not that I'm not dreading it. But ultimately, I can't go on like this. Even If he thinks I need sugery. I'm not ill, I ( Read more... )

Irgendwas liegt mir auf der Seele. Ich weiß nicht was. Ich glaub, ich will es gar nicht wissen.

Hab gerade etwas überlegt, was ich gar nicht überlegen soll. Wusste nicht, dass ich mich eigentlich so fühlte. Vielleicht war es nur ein Gedanken.

Billy Joel, du bringst mich langsam um.

I've neglected livejournal rather, over the past couple of years, at least. In some ways I can't help feeling bad about that. I'd always said that if I went abroad I'd like to write about it, and keep all the memories. I gave up that idea when I went to Germany, when I still had my real journal. I decided that living life was more important ( Read more... )

 So, I'm sitting here with Billy Joel.  I haven't listened to him for months, years even.  Not properly.  Not for hours on end.  He was a constant companion once, for a couple of years at least.  I'd listen to other things too, but I'd always end up coming back to him.  But it seems now that he's just something I can listen to at 2.30AM on a ( Read more... )

 It appears that, ultimately, deep down inside, I *do* know why The Young Victoria makes me so upset after each viewing.  But, I don't think I'm willing to accept that reason.  And I don't think dwelling is going to help me get any further forward.  However much I have been trying to avoid it, I have once again slipped back into living in the past ( Read more... )

 Bin gerade außergewöhnlich geärgert.  Besserwisser und Klugscheißer, wenn 'es' gar nicht besser weißt und glaubt, dass 'es' klüger als alle andere ist.  'Es' hat keine Recht dazu.  Soll sich einfach nur verpissen und aus meinem Augen verschwinden.

 There are four things that scare me right now more than I've ever been scared about anything in my life.

1. Monday is my 21st birthday.  It seems innocuous, it should be fairly insignificant, but it's just proof of the fact that you just continue getting older and older until you die.  I've always been scared about death.  And somehow this inane ( Read more... )

Why do slugs have to rasp so?

Billy Joel is and always will be an idol of mine.