We wanted to play but we had nothing left to play for...
I'm feeling rather disillusioned with life right now. Nothing seems to be going right, and otherwise some things just don't seem to be very fair. I guess we'll just have to see what the consultant has to say about that tomorrow. Not that I'm not dreading it. But ultimately, I can't go on like this. Even If he thinks I need sugery. I'm not ill, I don't want it. But if that's the only option then that's the only fucking option. And I'll do it. Cause I need to be happy. I deserve to be happy.