Went to NCSU and ODU this weekend.
Friday-Saturday NCSU with caroline.
Saturday-Sunday at ODU with Nick and my crush
Super drunk then. Tequilla gets shit done.
Cuddled with E. A very good night.
I hate mclean.

the end.

( In terms of love )

Im tired. Im tired of feeling like this. For the most part, Ive been ok, but not being able to sleep the past two weeks has been kicking my ass. Im not going to lie, but I do miss him. I can't though, but Im giving him what he wants and I refuse for that to happen. I just want him to go away. He broke my heart and on the days I do feel ok, I have ( Read more... )

Today so far has been the worst. I was so depressed and tired this morning I couldn't make out of bed, so I missed Chem and Chem Lab. But, I plan on dropping those anyways, because it's unrealistic that they make me take Chem and A&P this semester. It hurts just knowing he's kissing another girl, hugging her, and just simply not giving a shit about ( Read more... )

Last night i got drunk for the first time. It was an amazing night ( Read more... )

I HATE HIM
I HATE HIM
I HATE HIM
I HATE HIM
I HATE HIM
I HATE HIM
I HATE HIM
I HATE HIM
I HATE HIM
I HATE HIM
I HATE HIM
I HATE HIM
I HATE HIM
I HATE HIM

Its like a fucking game is what he's doing to me.
I need to stop loving him, because this isnt healthy forme
I HATE HIM

I wish he would just come down to my room and suprise me and just say
"I love you. Im sorry. We'll be fine."

That's all.

but i know it wont happen

my heart hurts

I don't know whats going on with me and noel. He wont talk to me because I came back home to attend Marymount, which should make him happy considering im closer to him? I dont know, so I just decided not to talk to him until he knows what he's doing and wants because hes been a huge prick to me the past 3 weeks and im done crying over him and our ( Read more... )

I start Marymount in a week and one day. Im kinda excited mainly because ill be getting out of the house and walking around campus is usually my "workout." It's kind of bittersweet now though because Caroline left me while I was at the beach, but I talk to her like everyday or every other day and Nick leaves Wed., which is really going to make me ( Read more... )

I leave for PA to visit colleges and look back on where I grew up in 3 days ( Read more... )