1. how can everyone else be so satisfied with school when i'm daily plotting my escape?
2. how did i get stuck here?
3. what's going to happen?
4. why do i only come back to livejournal when i'm feeling so low? poor lj.

WAIT, I'M MOVING????????!!!!!!!!!!

isn't it funny how little things like AP scores matter now?
for instance: my cap and diploma are sitting on the floor in my room, barely escaping the encroaching mess from under the bed.
and i wish it would just stay summer forever. even if that means no college, and staying as dumb as i am now.
hey, i won't be dumb. i read. and that's all i need.

for some reason or other, i have spent a lot of time lately thinking about childbirth.
no, a LOT of time.
sometimes it gets a little obsessive.
MORE than a little.

it pretty much all started one morning last week, when i woke up and remembered that i had had a dream about having a baby. not giving birth to a baby, but just having one. she was a ( Read more... )

today i woke up with ( Read more... )

so:

so far i've only been turned down by nyu; fuck 'em. that means IF i could afford it, i could be going to barnard, vassar, bard, or marymount manhattan. BUT i am just now realizing the magnitude of how much i CAN'T. and yeah, i'm upset, and yeah, i'm wallowing (more than)a bit.

i just feel so stupid for having even applied to all these schools ( Read more... )

why my NYU letter came three days early, i don't know. it's DATED april 1st ( Read more... )

sooo ( Read more... )

yesterday i got my first sigourney weaver (circa Alien 3) comparison. and while i don't really believe that i resemble her much, i'm gonna go ahead and take it as a compliment, considering the fact that it came from danny herrero, whom i know to be a big fan of that sort of thing (that sort of thing being movies like Alien 3my first ever naked lady ( Read more... )

so i am now this bald, vegan person, and i apparently really scare/offend my father.

but most other people (people whose opinions actually MATTER to me) seem to love this new look ( Read more... )