There are so many things I wish that I could change about myself, and the way I handle things. First thing that will be changing, I will no longer allow myself to be a doormat. When I like someone, I'm going to force myself to let him chase me if he's interested otherwise I'll have to force myself to avoid and let him go. I'm tired of going ( Read more... )

I have learned something about myself recently that honestly makes things a lot more understandable...but a little bit more difficult. Everyone's heard of heterosexual, homosexual, and bisexual. Some may have even heard of Asexual. I have recently learned about something called Demisexual. Which is a person that doesn't feel any attraction so ( Read more... )

So I'm going to try and go out next week, and just mingle with people....I need to stop moping and hoping that certain individuals will have a change of heart. I must get on with my life and starting tomorrow pursue that job I so desperately want/need. I don't want to go home, if I do then I'll feel like I've failed. Plus my room isn't my room ( Read more... )

I'm having one of those nights where I don't sleep because I'm worrying about the future which hasn't happened yet, and the only thing I can control is whether I graduate or not....~inhales deep breath~ kinda working but not really. I took some melatonin in the hopes of shutting the brain function off enough so I can pass out ( Read more... )

Yup, for once I'm not venting rage and depression lol. I am down to the home stretch, getting the final pieces together for my last portfolio piece, which just literally needs stuff in it, so small details, which I actually excel at. lol, of course its the things most people don't notice that I'm decent at. All that's left is to finalize the ( Read more... )

Today was the best day that I've had in school all together. I got all of my work done for my finals in a good amount of time. I got praised by one of the toughest instructors to please in the entire school and I got to hang out with carl and I made plans to go shooting this week plus ice skating ( Read more... )

I've realized that I haven't been happy for at least 6 months now, and it's just been one huge emotional roller coaster ride for me and my room mates. I'm finally feeling the pressure of graduation and its occurred to me that this is it. No more schooling and I will now have to live my life. Where I'll be living and how I'll support myself is ( Read more... )

It's been a long time since I wrote on here. I don't know if anyone will be reading this or not and I don't really care, I just need to vent ( Read more... )

I finally figured out what the flirting game is!!! Its Playing!!! I totally understand that now!!! lol

with the holidays coming up...I actually am feeling more and more depressed and lonely, course I think its a combination of being sick and tired at the same time. By next week hopefully this emotional rollercoaster will be over. My last final is tomorrow and I haven't even finished my tank...It looks okay, but I know it could look better. I also ( Read more... )