[fanfic] Source of Happiness - Reita x Aoi - 11/?
Title : Source of Happiness
Chapter : 11/??
Author : kei_kyuuketsuki
Fandom : the GazettE, Alice Nine
Pairings : ReitaxAoi, ToraxAoi,
Rating : R
Genre : AU, drama, angst
Warning : Harsh words, violence, bad English
Disclaimer : I only own the story
Summary : the Beautiful Being’s happiness couldn’t last long. The Mean One will never let the Beautiful Being go… what will Reita do with it?
Comments : It’s written form Aoi’s POV. Yes. A very short comment, just like the chapter. More comment at the end of the note. Happy reading!
Chapter 1: Beauty; Chapter 2: Innocent; Chapter 3: View; Chapter 4: Blame;
Chapter 5: Truth; Chapter 6: Interest; Chapter 7: Smile; Chapter 8: Pain;
Chapter 9: Escape; Chapter 10: Protection
THOUGHT
“Ah!?”
I was surprised. I opened my eyes, but nothing came to visible in front of me. Everything was blurred. I couldn’t see anything clearly. What’s this? I touched my eyes slowly. Wet…
I cried again. The pain was still there. Tora’s insanity just won’t let me go that easy. It was even come into my dream. It was a nightmare. The things I’ve experienced yesterday was already way too bad to be repeated in my dream.
In my dream, Tora hurt me. He left me alone, and he went to see Ruki. Oh, God… please, help me… let me go from this pain… for awhile… if he’s really still in love with Ruki, why Tora just won’t let me go? Why Tora still could get really mad when I’m with Reita or with other guys?
I wiped my tears. I tried to focusing my vision. I saw the ceiling that I’ve never seen before. Where am I? Whose room is this? This is not my room, and this room is too modest for Tora’s room… then, whose room is this?
I turned my head and looked to my side. There was someone who was still sleeping on a thin mattress that placed on this room floor. I could only see his back. Even so, I know the figure very well...
Reita…
I smiled. Slowly, I remember it one by one. I infiltrated this building to search for him. I didn’t really remember what happened until he took me into his room and did everything.
Everything…
Reita did everything. He stripped me and leaving only my underpants. He didn’t do it for bad intention. Reita was so different from Tora. He did it so he can easily clean and treat my wounds.
I could see it that night. Reita’s eyes were teary when he looked at the wounds on several places on my body. I guess, if Reita was a really emotional person, I didn’t have to wait for too long to see him cry.
But no. He didn’t cry. Reita held back. Or… at least, that’s what I thought. I could only heard him sighed every time he found new wound on the side of my body or on my back. One sentence that I had heard but Reita didn’t want to say it again was:
“If Tora didn’t feel sad when he saw all of these wounds, it means he really don’t deserve to be by your side, Aoi…”
Those words… I don’t know why it sounds so gallant… I think Reita didn’t know it when I smiled to those words…
After he finished with my wounds, he lent me his shirt. I couldn’t wear my shirt anymore. Apart from there’s no button anymore on my shirt, I’ve just realize it that my shirt was already stained with my blood.
I looked at the shirt that Reita lent to me. The plain white shirt was really not dazzling. I mean, it’s so plain. Yeah, it’s just white, without no pattern, no words, no picture. Just white. But it was only until I found a Hello Kitty icon at the lower part of the shirt.
I didn’t know how I was able to found the icon. The icon was so small. It was just as big as my little finger’s tip and it was just an outline. You couldn’t found it if you didn’t really notice about this shirt. One thing I thought when I saw the icon: Reita? Hello kitty? Come one… don’t tell me that he really like that cute character…
But… the small icon made me smile…
Reita didn’t know when I smile, I guess. After I accepted the shirt from him, Reita left me. From the clinking sound I heard, looked like that Reita went to his kitchen. I didn’t know where the kitchen was, ‘cause when I entered Reita’s room, my vision was still blurred. I was still felt so dizzy back then. Plus, I guess my tears were too much so it could block my vision very well.
Then, several minutes after that, I smelled something. The flavor was then ‘calling’ something in my stomach. My stomach ‘answered’ it with its embarrassing sound. Lucky me, it happened when Reita was still in his kitchen. If only Reita appeared faster, I bet Reita could hear the sound from my empty stomach, and it would be very embarrassing.
Reita brought a bowl on his hand. Reita sat beside me on his bed. Slowly, Reita gave me the bowl. That’s the time when I saw what was inside the bowl: porridge. So that was the thing that made Reita busy in his kitchen before. Reita cooked for me. More than that, Reita Reit asked me whether I could move my hand or not. I didn’t know how, I just know exactly that Reita intend to feed me.
Reita… the way he treat me nearly made me cry again…
Tora never treat me this sweet…
And what made Reita think that I deserve to accept this kind of treatment from him? Our relationship is not more than just friends…
This was more than enough. I couldn’t bother Reita more than this. I only receive the bowl and said that I can do it by myself. I smiled to make sure that he didn’t take it as an offense to his kindness. Reita nodded. He then just sat in front of his television, not far from his bed where I sat at.
Slowly, I ate the porridge… it was delicious! I smiled again. It was like Reita poured all of his feelings to make this porridge for me. As I ate the porridge, I was thinking, if only Tora could be like this… if only Tora could be like Reita… if only my lover was not Tora, but Rei-
. . . . .
Oh, my God… what am I thinking about?
I bit my lower lip. Suddenly, I didn’t feel like eating anymore…
“Rei…”
He looked at me before he gazed at the bowl in my hand. Reita sighed and smiled. He took the bowl from my hand and went to the kitchen. I guess he could understand why I didn’t finish the porridge. I mean, I think, maybe, Reita could understand with ill person’s condition who couldn‘t finish their food.
Actually I didn’t mean to leave the porridge like that. But something inside me made me didn’t know how to react to my own thought. It was affecting my appetite.
I guess I was really way too talented to disappointing kind person like Reita.
Like this necklace…
The necklace that I held tightly, since the first time I arrived at this place, starting to insist me to speak. I couldn’t hide it forever, could I? I know I could make Reita felt very disappointed. But I guess… he had to know about this.
In the end, after he got back from the kitchen, I called him. Reita looked at me. He looked so worried back then. Well, that’s what I saw from his expression. Was the fear really that visible? He walked closer to me and patted my head. Really… I like when he did that… I felt… loved…
Slowly, I opened my hand and showed the necklace to him. I told him everything, why the necklace was broken. I told him I’m sorry over and over again. I just didn’t want Tora to break the necklace but I just couldn’t do anything to stop him.
I was really confused. Reita said that it wasn’t my fault. He understands my situation. I just don’t get it. Why Reita didn’t get mad at me? I failed at taking care of this small thing. It’s just a small thing and I failed at it. I just really don’t get it, why Tora, the one that I wished to have that kind of understanding, on the contrary never treat me like that? Why Reita is the one who has the kindness I need? Why the attention I need came from someone who didn’t have any special relationship with me?
When I thought about that, I could only sat and cried. I didn’t know how many tears I shed for this problem. I didn’t know how many tears Reita saw until he sat beside me. He surprised me, again. He hugged me.
Reita… he was really smart at surprising me. Since the first time I know him, I forgot at how many times he surprised me like this.
He really knew to comfort me at a time like this, in my current condition. I hugged him back. I don’t care. Tora won’t see us like this, now, here. I need this, but Tora never hugged me in a lovely way. He hugged me when he needed my body. That is…
Then, I told him about how I got here. At first, Reita was really surprised about my explanation. Yes, that time, I surprised him. In a different way, though. He told me that he didn’t expect me to follow him home after he done with his shift in Sumire that day.
After he heard the whole story, he said, “Don’t ever do that again, Aoi. I’m no one. I don’t deserve to be followed by you like that… but… I’m glad you did it… ‘cause now you know that you still have a save place for you…”
That was the last sentence I heard before I drifted to my slumber… on Reita’s bed…
Reita… he did everything… he treat all of my wounds, he lent me his bed. Really, watching him sleeping on that thin mattress really affected me. He’s the owner of this place yet he didn’t get the most comfortable place to sleep. He gave all the comfort he had to me.
Reita… did you know something? I had a dream last night. It was a pretty short dream, right before I had that nightmare. I don’t know. I couldn’t remember it. Were those dreams really giving some effect to each others? Was it why I had the nightmare? Was the nightmare a warning for me? It warned me, if it happens, it won’t be good for both of us…
It won’t be good if you really kissed me like what you did in my dream last night, Reita…
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A/N: there. I’ll wrap it like this. It’s another short chapter. I hope it won’t bother you. Tell me if you found any grammatical error. I didn’t edit it. Too lazy to do it at the moment. ORZ
Comments and critics are love!
Chapter : 11/??
Author : kei_kyuuketsuki
Fandom : the GazettE, Alice Nine
Pairings : ReitaxAoi, ToraxAoi,
Rating : R
Genre : AU, drama, angst
Warning : Harsh words, violence, bad English
Disclaimer : I only own the story
Summary : the Beautiful Being’s happiness couldn’t last long. The Mean One will never let the Beautiful Being go… what will Reita do with it?
Comments : It’s written form Aoi’s POV. Yes. A very short comment, just like the chapter. More comment at the end of the note. Happy reading!
Chapter 1: Beauty; Chapter 2: Innocent; Chapter 3: View; Chapter 4: Blame;
Chapter 5: Truth; Chapter 6: Interest; Chapter 7: Smile; Chapter 8: Pain;
Chapter 9: Escape; Chapter 10: Protection
THOUGHT
“Ah!?”
I was surprised. I opened my eyes, but nothing came to visible in front of me. Everything was blurred. I couldn’t see anything clearly. What’s this? I touched my eyes slowly. Wet…
I cried again. The pain was still there. Tora’s insanity just won’t let me go that easy. It was even come into my dream. It was a nightmare. The things I’ve experienced yesterday was already way too bad to be repeated in my dream.
In my dream, Tora hurt me. He left me alone, and he went to see Ruki. Oh, God… please, help me… let me go from this pain… for awhile… if he’s really still in love with Ruki, why Tora just won’t let me go? Why Tora still could get really mad when I’m with Reita or with other guys?
I wiped my tears. I tried to focusing my vision. I saw the ceiling that I’ve never seen before. Where am I? Whose room is this? This is not my room, and this room is too modest for Tora’s room… then, whose room is this?
I turned my head and looked to my side. There was someone who was still sleeping on a thin mattress that placed on this room floor. I could only see his back. Even so, I know the figure very well...
Reita…
I smiled. Slowly, I remember it one by one. I infiltrated this building to search for him. I didn’t really remember what happened until he took me into his room and did everything.
Everything…
Reita did everything. He stripped me and leaving only my underpants. He didn’t do it for bad intention. Reita was so different from Tora. He did it so he can easily clean and treat my wounds.
I could see it that night. Reita’s eyes were teary when he looked at the wounds on several places on my body. I guess, if Reita was a really emotional person, I didn’t have to wait for too long to see him cry.
But no. He didn’t cry. Reita held back. Or… at least, that’s what I thought. I could only heard him sighed every time he found new wound on the side of my body or on my back. One sentence that I had heard but Reita didn’t want to say it again was:
“If Tora didn’t feel sad when he saw all of these wounds, it means he really don’t deserve to be by your side, Aoi…”
Those words… I don’t know why it sounds so gallant… I think Reita didn’t know it when I smiled to those words…
After he finished with my wounds, he lent me his shirt. I couldn’t wear my shirt anymore. Apart from there’s no button anymore on my shirt, I’ve just realize it that my shirt was already stained with my blood.
I looked at the shirt that Reita lent to me. The plain white shirt was really not dazzling. I mean, it’s so plain. Yeah, it’s just white, without no pattern, no words, no picture. Just white. But it was only until I found a Hello Kitty icon at the lower part of the shirt.
I didn’t know how I was able to found the icon. The icon was so small. It was just as big as my little finger’s tip and it was just an outline. You couldn’t found it if you didn’t really notice about this shirt. One thing I thought when I saw the icon: Reita? Hello kitty? Come one… don’t tell me that he really like that cute character…
But… the small icon made me smile…
Reita didn’t know when I smile, I guess. After I accepted the shirt from him, Reita left me. From the clinking sound I heard, looked like that Reita went to his kitchen. I didn’t know where the kitchen was, ‘cause when I entered Reita’s room, my vision was still blurred. I was still felt so dizzy back then. Plus, I guess my tears were too much so it could block my vision very well.
Then, several minutes after that, I smelled something. The flavor was then ‘calling’ something in my stomach. My stomach ‘answered’ it with its embarrassing sound. Lucky me, it happened when Reita was still in his kitchen. If only Reita appeared faster, I bet Reita could hear the sound from my empty stomach, and it would be very embarrassing.
Reita brought a bowl on his hand. Reita sat beside me on his bed. Slowly, Reita gave me the bowl. That’s the time when I saw what was inside the bowl: porridge. So that was the thing that made Reita busy in his kitchen before. Reita cooked for me. More than that, Reita Reit asked me whether I could move my hand or not. I didn’t know how, I just know exactly that Reita intend to feed me.
Reita… the way he treat me nearly made me cry again…
Tora never treat me this sweet…
And what made Reita think that I deserve to accept this kind of treatment from him? Our relationship is not more than just friends…
This was more than enough. I couldn’t bother Reita more than this. I only receive the bowl and said that I can do it by myself. I smiled to make sure that he didn’t take it as an offense to his kindness. Reita nodded. He then just sat in front of his television, not far from his bed where I sat at.
Slowly, I ate the porridge… it was delicious! I smiled again. It was like Reita poured all of his feelings to make this porridge for me. As I ate the porridge, I was thinking, if only Tora could be like this… if only Tora could be like Reita… if only my lover was not Tora, but Rei-
. . . . .
Oh, my God… what am I thinking about?
I bit my lower lip. Suddenly, I didn’t feel like eating anymore…
“Rei…”
He looked at me before he gazed at the bowl in my hand. Reita sighed and smiled. He took the bowl from my hand and went to the kitchen. I guess he could understand why I didn’t finish the porridge. I mean, I think, maybe, Reita could understand with ill person’s condition who couldn‘t finish their food.
Actually I didn’t mean to leave the porridge like that. But something inside me made me didn’t know how to react to my own thought. It was affecting my appetite.
I guess I was really way too talented to disappointing kind person like Reita.
Like this necklace…
The necklace that I held tightly, since the first time I arrived at this place, starting to insist me to speak. I couldn’t hide it forever, could I? I know I could make Reita felt very disappointed. But I guess… he had to know about this.
In the end, after he got back from the kitchen, I called him. Reita looked at me. He looked so worried back then. Well, that’s what I saw from his expression. Was the fear really that visible? He walked closer to me and patted my head. Really… I like when he did that… I felt… loved…
Slowly, I opened my hand and showed the necklace to him. I told him everything, why the necklace was broken. I told him I’m sorry over and over again. I just didn’t want Tora to break the necklace but I just couldn’t do anything to stop him.
I was really confused. Reita said that it wasn’t my fault. He understands my situation. I just don’t get it. Why Reita didn’t get mad at me? I failed at taking care of this small thing. It’s just a small thing and I failed at it. I just really don’t get it, why Tora, the one that I wished to have that kind of understanding, on the contrary never treat me like that? Why Reita is the one who has the kindness I need? Why the attention I need came from someone who didn’t have any special relationship with me?
When I thought about that, I could only sat and cried. I didn’t know how many tears I shed for this problem. I didn’t know how many tears Reita saw until he sat beside me. He surprised me, again. He hugged me.
Reita… he was really smart at surprising me. Since the first time I know him, I forgot at how many times he surprised me like this.
He really knew to comfort me at a time like this, in my current condition. I hugged him back. I don’t care. Tora won’t see us like this, now, here. I need this, but Tora never hugged me in a lovely way. He hugged me when he needed my body. That is…
Then, I told him about how I got here. At first, Reita was really surprised about my explanation. Yes, that time, I surprised him. In a different way, though. He told me that he didn’t expect me to follow him home after he done with his shift in Sumire that day.
After he heard the whole story, he said, “Don’t ever do that again, Aoi. I’m no one. I don’t deserve to be followed by you like that… but… I’m glad you did it… ‘cause now you know that you still have a save place for you…”
That was the last sentence I heard before I drifted to my slumber… on Reita’s bed…
Reita… he did everything… he treat all of my wounds, he lent me his bed. Really, watching him sleeping on that thin mattress really affected me. He’s the owner of this place yet he didn’t get the most comfortable place to sleep. He gave all the comfort he had to me.
Reita… did you know something? I had a dream last night. It was a pretty short dream, right before I had that nightmare. I don’t know. I couldn’t remember it. Were those dreams really giving some effect to each others? Was it why I had the nightmare? Was the nightmare a warning for me? It warned me, if it happens, it won’t be good for both of us…
It won’t be good if you really kissed me like what you did in my dream last night, Reita…
***+++…___...___...+++***
A/N: there. I’ll wrap it like this. It’s another short chapter. I hope it won’t bother you. Tell me if you found any grammatical error. I didn’t edit it. Too lazy to do it at the moment. ORZ
Comments and critics are love!