[fanfic] Source of Happiness - Reita x Aoi - 9/?
Title : Source of Happiness
Chapter : 9/??
Author : kei_kyuuketsuki
Fandom : the GazettE, Alice Nine
Pairings : ReitaXAoi, ToraXAoi
Rating : R
Genre : AU, drama, angst
Warning : harsh words, violence, bad English
Disclaimer : I only own the story…
Summary : the Beautiful Being’s happiness couldn’t last long. The Mean One will never let the Beautiful Being go… what will Reita do with it?
Comments : I have to skip the smex scene from chapter 8… I hope it’ll be okay… I’m not good in smex scene… T_T… anyway, this chapter was written in Aoi’s POV. Hope you enjoy it. Critical comments are needed!
Chapter 1: Beauty; Chapter 2: Innocent; Chapter 3: View; Chapter 4: Blame;
Chapter 5: Truth; Chapter 6: Interest; Chapter 7: Smile; Chapter 8: Pain
ESCAPE
I couldn’t breathe properly. My tears were still flowing on my cheeks. I don’t know for how long I’m crying. My tears were already dampening the pillow under my head. The wound on my forehead was begun to bleed again. I could feel the blood was starting to dry out. All I could see now was just this room’s ceiling. I couldn’t move my head. If I moved, even just an inch, I would feel all the pain will spread through all of my body.
With this position and condition, I could only optimize my ears to hear all the sounds in this room. I could heard the sound of this bed cover when Tora out of the bed. From the clinking sound of his belt, I know that Tora took his jeans from the floor.
“He didn’t touch you yet, did he?” Tora asked.
I could only shake my head. I already couldn’t manage to produce any voice. I didn’t know whether Tora saw me shook my head or not. I barely even knew where Tora stood right now. My head was too dizzy to allow me to look at any other thing besides this ceiling. I could only hear Tora chuckled after that.
“Well, I’m glad. Really. But I just don’t understand,” Tora said. “I’m glad because Reita knew what he may do, and what he shouldn’t do to everything that belongs to Tora.”
Yes. Now I know that Tora saw me shook my head. Then, what made him don’t understand?
“One thing that I don’t understand, I didn’t expect that Reita could forbear himself when he was near a person like you, Aoi.” Tora chuckled again. After that, I could hear he zipped his jeans.
Tora, for this one thing, I had to agree with you. Reita was not the type of person who immediately asked me to give him all I got. He’s not like you. You would easily ask me to do it to prove that I really love you.
What made me so stupid back then? Why it was so easy for me to believe in all Tora’s words? It was so easy to submit to those kinds of words. I did it. I gave him everything. I gave Tora my everything. I did it to make him believe...
That I love him…
Oh, now I couldn’t see this room’s ceiling. Tora sat on his bed, beside me. He was looking at me. I didn’t know that he already wore a shirt. He moved really fast. Or, was the time moved slower around me?
“Aoi…” He called me with a soft voice. Really, Tora… if only you could use that tone every time you call my name, I don’t have think about how to escape from your bedroom right now.
“To… ra…” I answered with a husky voice.
“Sssh…” He put his forefinger on my lips. “You must be tired, right, Aoi? Take a rest… I want to go for awhile…”
“Wh-where..?”
“I… just… need some fresh air…”
Fresh air? Tora, you didn’t have to lie to me. It’s not a fresh air you need. It’s Ruki, right? You could just tell me, Tora. I won’t get mad at you. I promise. Yes, it’s sad. But you know that I couldn’t do anything about it, right? I just wanted to know why. Those things you’ve done to me a moment ago… were those things still didn’t make you satisfy, Tora? You still want to leave me? Here, alone?
“When… will you… return..?” Slowly, I gain my real voice back.
“I don’t know, Aoi. If you’re hungry, you can order a pizza or something else…”
Tora, please. I hardly can do anything with my current condition. How could I order a pizza? I can barely move. Even it’s so hard to reach the receiver. How could I even talk like this? What would other thinks if they heard my shaky breath? Won’t you treat my wound first? Please, don’t go. Or at least, please ask Kai to come by. I don’t want to be alone…
I could only sigh. I couldn’t express my plea. I didn’t have the courage to say that all to Tora. But then, I made a big mistake when I say, “Tora… it still hurts…”
Oh, my God…
The words just flow without gave me the time to stop it. My tears flow after I said those words. I knew that Tora wouldn’t like it. He looked at me and I could see the hatred gathered in Tora’s eyes. Tora extended his hand to my head, and once again, he grabbed my hair. I screamed.
“SHUT UP!!” he yelled in annoyance.
I tried hard to suppress my sobs. Tora used that opportunity to pull my hair and made my face closer to his. As I withstand the pain, I used my elbows to support my body’s weight to lessen the pain from my hair that been pulled.
“This is worth with what you’ve done yesterday, Aoi! If only you could understand my feelings, you didn’t have to feel all of this!” he shouted.
I let my left elbow be the only supporter for my body. I used my right hand to hold Tora’s hand that still kept pulling my hair. I just wanted Tora to lessen the pain, a little.
“To-Tora…”
But Tora pulled it even harder. “Now you know that you’re wrong?”
I never like the question. I didn’t do anything wrong. “To-Tora... I-“
“Come on, Aoi. I don’t want to hear a denial. Ok? Say yes, and I’ll let you go. Agree?” In the end, I could only nod a little. “Good. So, you already know your mistake?”
“Y-yes, Tora…”
“What is it?”
“I’m disappointing you…”
“Try a bit more specific, Aoi! I know you’re smarter than this!” Tora yelled as he strengthened his grip.
“I… didn’t ask for your permission-”
“Wrong, Aoi!” He let me go suddenly and let my head fell onto the pillow.
Pillow was not a hard material thing that could harm my head. But the bump was already enough to make my view blurred. I still didn’t have the time to adapt myself with that when Tora held my face with a tight grip.
“You want to know the correct answer?” Tora asked. For Tora need an answer, I nodded. “This is not about permission, Aoi. Your mistake is you didn’t let me know about it in the first place.”
“Y-your cellphone-”
Tora slapped me again. “You always use that reason! You knew you can’t call me, but why did you still go anyway!?”
I couldn’t keep it any longer. I had to tell him. “H-how long did you didn’t bring your cellphone with you, Tora?” I asked between my sobs.
“Oh, so that’s the problem?” Tora asked as he touched the wound on my forehead. “You use that as your reason to do anything you like, right? That means, as long as you couldn’t reach me, along the way you start making relationship with Reita?”
“Tora, I-” My words were stopped when Tora pressed the wound on my forehead. I screamed. I held his hand. “Stop it! Please, Tora! It hurts!! PLEASE!!”
Tora pulled his hand and I immediately covering my forehead. I could feel some wet and sticky material. I knew it. I’m bleeding again. Oh, my God…
“What did you do with him while I’m not with you?”
“W-we didn’t do anything…”
“Liar!” Tora yelled. “What, you met last Sunday inadvertently!? Like hell it was, Aoi! Tell me! You made an appointment with him before Sunday, right!? You talked to him, right, Aoi!?”
“At… the campus, Tora…” I lied. I had to do it. I don’t know what Tora would do if he knew that I met Reita at his work place.
“Campus?” Tora snorted. “It’s impossible for me to ask Kai to follow you wherever you go, right, Aoi!? Can’t you make me believe in you, Aoi!? Just once!?”
Believe in me? God, please. I couldn’t stop thinking Tora was with Ruki when he didn’t bring his cellphone with him. Yet, I’m the one to be blame on for cheating him. I didn’t do it, Tora. I didn’t cheat on you. Reita and I are just-
“Once again, if I find out that you still have ANY relationship with Reita, I’ll-” Tora’s cellphone ringed. “Fuck! Why at a time like this!?” Tora kept swearing as he searched for his cellphone.
I don’t know. I, don’t, know. There was something that pushed me to escape from this place. I tried my best to move. Maybe for my movement was too slow, Tora didn’t even notice when I’m moving. He was too busy to search for his cellphone. Fortunately, everything was even getting easier when Tora found his cellphone. He left the bedroom, and I’m alone here. It looked like he didn’t want me to hear who he was talking to. Oh, please. Like it’s the most important thing that I should know at a time like this…
I tried to sit. I used both of my hands to support my body that felt so rigid. I had to fight all this pain on my body…
Putting down my feet from the bed in this condition was not an easy thing. Every movement will deliver all the pain from whole body to my head. It’s not some pleasant thing to feel. Oh, my… Tora’s bedroom floor was covered with carpet. But why it’s still felt so cold?
Now, I have to stand. Or, should I crawl instead? All of my clothes were scattered on the carpet. Why should I torture myself with straightened my body to bend it again later? Tora, how could you do this to me? Did you ever think that this pain would last until few days…?
“Can’t you be patient!?”
It’s Tora’s voice. I was a little shocked when I heard those words. But I didn’t find Tora’s existence in this room. It looked like he was still talking on the telephone. I didn’t know who Tora was talking to. I couldn’t think about it when at the same time, I’m still trembling, trying to find a way to get away from this place.
Oh, please. Wearing jeans with this condition was really hard as hell. It felt very gnawing. Tora really didn’t have to scratch my thigh, really. I don’t know why he always did that as he did it to me. And now, I’ve just realized: Tora snapped all of my shirt’s buttons. I had to find - at least - a jacket for-
Tora’s bedroom door was opened. I turned my head, and there, Tora was standing. Tora looked at me. His right hand was still holding his cellphone right to his ear. I didn’t have any time left to find any jacket at all. At a time like this, Tora would-
“I’ll call you later,” Tora said as he turned off his cellphone.
God… Please… help me…
“Where do you think you’re going?” Tora took steps closer to me.
“I… have to go… home-”
“Who gave you a permission to leave this place?” Tora stopped right in front of me.
“I… have to finish something, Tora… please…”
He slapped me again. “I’m not done with this yet, Aoi!” Tora yelled at me. “You will stay here until I let you go home!”
“I have a paper that must be collected tomorrow, Tora…” I just didn’t know what to say anymore. I know it’s a lame excuse. It’s so much lame for an excuse. I guess I took too much hit on my head it giving an impact to my brain. Now, I can’t think properly about anything.
“Paper?” Tora snorted. I could hear a mocking note in that laughter. “What paper, Aoi? You think you can go to campus tomorrow with your current condition?”
“I-I need to-”
“NO!!” Tora grabbed my hair again. “Even if you have to give that paper tomorrow, you still can’t go to campus tomorrow! What will you say if there anyone who ask you about your wounds, Aoi!?”
“I-”
Tora’s cellphone ringed again. He was swearing again. Tora let me go and he answered the phone. “What now!?”
At a time like this, I won’t have the time to find a jacket to covering my wounds in my body. I could only depend on my shirt even I couldn’t be buttoned it again… I wore my shirt… and… there’s no other way. I have to run…
“HEY!?!”
It was Tora’s shout when I ran passed him to his living room. I took my bag that was still lying on the floor. There, I saw my necklace, the one that I couldn’t wear anymore. I took it, and ran to the front door. I took my shoes; I didn’t have time to put my shoes on. With panic, I unlocked the door, opened the door in a hurry, and ran out of Tora’s apartment. I hugged all of my things, include my shoes. I didn’t really care about my bare feet. All I need to do now is run… Tora’s still calling at me… he asked me to come back…
I ran. I ran until the end of the corridor and stopped right in front of the elevator. Still in panic, I pressed the button over and over again. I just wanted the elevator doors to open as soon as possible…
…or I’m going to die…
“AOI!!”
The elevator door was opened, and I got into the elevator hurriedly. Inside the elevator, I pressed the ‘close’ button over and over again. I wanted the door to close before Tora had the opportunity to catch me.
No. I didn’t see him. I didn’t see Tora until the elevator door was closed. The elevator door was protecting me from the madman. Then, I pressed the ‘1st floor’ button inside the elevator.
I tried to catch my breath. I tried to do it my best ‘cause it’s so hard to make my heart beating in its normal pace again. My tears were not stopping either. All of my things fell as such when I could no longer give power to both of my hands.
I covered my face with hands. I leaned on the cold wall of the elevator. I cried. I couldn’t stand any longer. Slowly, I fell on the floor and sit there. I hugged myself. My sobbing sound echoed inside the elevator. The pain in my whole body didn’t give me any help either. It’s throbbing… it hurts… and in such condition…
I don’t know where I should go.
Tora would probably chase me to my apartment.
I can’t go home…
Where…
Anyone I know…
…
Reita…
Reita…
Slowly, I reached my shoes and put it on. My hands were still shaking, but I had to finish all of these before the elevator reach the first floor…
Done with my shoes, I took my sling bag and hanged it on my right shoulder. I let it crossed to the left side of my hip to help my shirt - that was couldn’t be buttoned - covering my body. I tried to ignore the pain from my wound on my right shoulder. I had to last until I find a safer place.
Then, a shiny object that was still lying on the elevator floor stole my attention: it was the necklace…
I bend to took it.
The wing was broken. Perhaps it was left at Tora’s apartment. I couldn’t go back there to take the wing part.
If Reita see this… what will he say to me?
Reita might be angry… he probably will be very disappointed…
But…
I held the necklace in my tight grip… I didn’t have any other option… I couldn’t go home, and I didn’t have any other place to hide myself…
I hope Reita will understand…
I was surprised when I heard a clink sound and the elevator doors were opened. I’ve reached the first floor…
“Aoi?”
I was shoked when I saw someone stood in front of me: Kai…
I bumped him and ran away, out from the building. I ran and I ran as I withstand with the pain that made my head throbbed. I bet Kai could see the blood on my forehead. But I couldn’t stop. I ran, ran, ran, and-
A taxi!
I didn’t have to think twice to stretch my left hand. I thanked to anything in this world for making the taxi stopped. The taxi passenger door was opened, and I hurriedly get into the taxi.
Right before the door closed, I could still hear the voice.
“Aoi!”
I was shocked. I looked back and saw Kai was standing in front of the apartment building.
“Where are you going, Sir?” the driver asked.
I looked at the driver. With a low voice - I still couldn’t produce a loud voice enough - I said the address to him. It was Reita’s address. The driver nodded. I glad the he could still hear my voice. He started to drive the car. He took me away from Kai, from the building… from Tora…
I opened my sling bag and took Ogre. I shut the black cellphone down. After that, I took Chizuru and searched for Reita’s number.
Oh, no. Why now? I didn’t get Reita’s number yet when my white cellphone’s screen went blank. It’s out of battery.
Now I couldn’t call Reita. I just wanted to meet him, God. Why I just couldn’t do that simple thing?
“Are you okay, Son?” the driver suddenly asked me.
“Eh?” I didn’t understand. The way he called me has changed. From the middle mirror inside the car, I could see the driver was sometimes looking at me. I bet that’s why he knew about my estimate age.
“I’m sorry for being impolite, but… I just can’t do nothing knowing you’re having those bruises. Someone… hurt you?”
“Oh… this…” I touched my forehead cautiously. “I’m… okay… Sir…”
“Are you sure you’re okay, Son? Those bruises might be infected…”
“It’s alright, Sir… just… take me to that address…”
The drive sighed. “Fine then. It’s all up to you,” said the driver. “But one thing, Son…”
“Yes?”
“It’s just a suggestion. I’m not insisting you to do it… but, if it possible, just stay away from anyone that made you like this…”
I forced myself to smile. “Thank you, Sir…” That was the only thing I could say to him.
I sighed… If only I could do that…
*+*
In front of Reita’s apartment building, I got out of the car. The driver nodded politely at me. I reciprocate it my best as I could still feel the sting in my head. The taxi moved and left me alone there. I gasped when my sight blurred suddenly. I held my head with my right hand as my left hand search something to support my shaky body.
No… please… not now… at least, let me see Reita first.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I tried to collect all the energy I have left. As I exhaled slowly, I opened my eyes. I looked at the white building, and I entered it. I searched for the elevator position.
Far at my right, I found the elevator. I walked there. My sight got even more blur. I had to pushed myself to focused my view so that I could looked at where I stepped my feet.
I stopped right in front of the elevator door. It’s not long, lucky me. Just right after I pressed the elevator’s button, the door was opened. I entered the elevator and pressed button number three inside the elevator.
The elevator door was closed and I waited, again. It was already the second time I waited inside an elevator. The different was this time, I didn’t panic like before. Soon, I can meet with Reita.
I’ve reached the third floor. The elevator door was opened. Really, this was the first time I walked inside this building. I didn’t even know which Reita’s apartment door was. The corridor I saw in front of me insisted me to think really hard. Whereas, my head was already hurt enough to let me think harder than I capable to do that time.
Wait… if I’m not mistaken, Reita’s window was placed right at the most edge of this building. That means, Reita’s room was placed right at the end of this corridor.
I walked until the last door in the corridor. I stopped and stood in front of the door. I looked at the nameplate beside the door: Suzuki.
It was a big relieve. That’s Reita’s family name. If I made any mistake about Reita’s door, I don’t know what to do anymore ‘cause I don’t feel like having more energy left to search for it. I sighed at ease. My smile was appeared on my face offhanded. Then, I knocked on the door and waited for awhile.
No one opened the door, no one answered from inside. I pressed the bell button beside the nameplate and waited again.
Reita still didn’t open it. I still didn’t hear anyone answered the bell.
I was blinded about the time. I didn’t know what time was it. Could it be that Reita was still working?
Oh, no…
My head was getting its most dizziness. As if all the wounds in my body were throbbing and stomping my heart at the same time. It hurts. It hurt so much.
I held my head.
Then, all I could see… was… only darkness…
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A/N: there..I hope it's fine like this..
as usual, comments and critics are love! ~<3
Chapter : 9/??
Author : kei_kyuuketsuki
Fandom : the GazettE, Alice Nine
Pairings : ReitaXAoi, ToraXAoi
Rating : R
Genre : AU, drama, angst
Warning : harsh words, violence, bad English
Disclaimer : I only own the story…
Summary : the Beautiful Being’s happiness couldn’t last long. The Mean One will never let the Beautiful Being go… what will Reita do with it?
Comments : I have to skip the smex scene from chapter 8… I hope it’ll be okay… I’m not good in smex scene… T_T… anyway, this chapter was written in Aoi’s POV. Hope you enjoy it. Critical comments are needed!
Chapter 1: Beauty; Chapter 2: Innocent; Chapter 3: View; Chapter 4: Blame;
Chapter 5: Truth; Chapter 6: Interest; Chapter 7: Smile; Chapter 8: Pain
ESCAPE
I couldn’t breathe properly. My tears were still flowing on my cheeks. I don’t know for how long I’m crying. My tears were already dampening the pillow under my head. The wound on my forehead was begun to bleed again. I could feel the blood was starting to dry out. All I could see now was just this room’s ceiling. I couldn’t move my head. If I moved, even just an inch, I would feel all the pain will spread through all of my body.
With this position and condition, I could only optimize my ears to hear all the sounds in this room. I could heard the sound of this bed cover when Tora out of the bed. From the clinking sound of his belt, I know that Tora took his jeans from the floor.
“He didn’t touch you yet, did he?” Tora asked.
I could only shake my head. I already couldn’t manage to produce any voice. I didn’t know whether Tora saw me shook my head or not. I barely even knew where Tora stood right now. My head was too dizzy to allow me to look at any other thing besides this ceiling. I could only hear Tora chuckled after that.
“Well, I’m glad. Really. But I just don’t understand,” Tora said. “I’m glad because Reita knew what he may do, and what he shouldn’t do to everything that belongs to Tora.”
Yes. Now I know that Tora saw me shook my head. Then, what made him don’t understand?
“One thing that I don’t understand, I didn’t expect that Reita could forbear himself when he was near a person like you, Aoi.” Tora chuckled again. After that, I could hear he zipped his jeans.
Tora, for this one thing, I had to agree with you. Reita was not the type of person who immediately asked me to give him all I got. He’s not like you. You would easily ask me to do it to prove that I really love you.
What made me so stupid back then? Why it was so easy for me to believe in all Tora’s words? It was so easy to submit to those kinds of words. I did it. I gave him everything. I gave Tora my everything. I did it to make him believe...
That I love him…
Oh, now I couldn’t see this room’s ceiling. Tora sat on his bed, beside me. He was looking at me. I didn’t know that he already wore a shirt. He moved really fast. Or, was the time moved slower around me?
“Aoi…” He called me with a soft voice. Really, Tora… if only you could use that tone every time you call my name, I don’t have think about how to escape from your bedroom right now.
“To… ra…” I answered with a husky voice.
“Sssh…” He put his forefinger on my lips. “You must be tired, right, Aoi? Take a rest… I want to go for awhile…”
“Wh-where..?”
“I… just… need some fresh air…”
Fresh air? Tora, you didn’t have to lie to me. It’s not a fresh air you need. It’s Ruki, right? You could just tell me, Tora. I won’t get mad at you. I promise. Yes, it’s sad. But you know that I couldn’t do anything about it, right? I just wanted to know why. Those things you’ve done to me a moment ago… were those things still didn’t make you satisfy, Tora? You still want to leave me? Here, alone?
“When… will you… return..?” Slowly, I gain my real voice back.
“I don’t know, Aoi. If you’re hungry, you can order a pizza or something else…”
Tora, please. I hardly can do anything with my current condition. How could I order a pizza? I can barely move. Even it’s so hard to reach the receiver. How could I even talk like this? What would other thinks if they heard my shaky breath? Won’t you treat my wound first? Please, don’t go. Or at least, please ask Kai to come by. I don’t want to be alone…
I could only sigh. I couldn’t express my plea. I didn’t have the courage to say that all to Tora. But then, I made a big mistake when I say, “Tora… it still hurts…”
Oh, my God…
The words just flow without gave me the time to stop it. My tears flow after I said those words. I knew that Tora wouldn’t like it. He looked at me and I could see the hatred gathered in Tora’s eyes. Tora extended his hand to my head, and once again, he grabbed my hair. I screamed.
“SHUT UP!!” he yelled in annoyance.
I tried hard to suppress my sobs. Tora used that opportunity to pull my hair and made my face closer to his. As I withstand the pain, I used my elbows to support my body’s weight to lessen the pain from my hair that been pulled.
“This is worth with what you’ve done yesterday, Aoi! If only you could understand my feelings, you didn’t have to feel all of this!” he shouted.
I let my left elbow be the only supporter for my body. I used my right hand to hold Tora’s hand that still kept pulling my hair. I just wanted Tora to lessen the pain, a little.
“To-Tora…”
But Tora pulled it even harder. “Now you know that you’re wrong?”
I never like the question. I didn’t do anything wrong. “To-Tora... I-“
“Come on, Aoi. I don’t want to hear a denial. Ok? Say yes, and I’ll let you go. Agree?” In the end, I could only nod a little. “Good. So, you already know your mistake?”
“Y-yes, Tora…”
“What is it?”
“I’m disappointing you…”
“Try a bit more specific, Aoi! I know you’re smarter than this!” Tora yelled as he strengthened his grip.
“I… didn’t ask for your permission-”
“Wrong, Aoi!” He let me go suddenly and let my head fell onto the pillow.
Pillow was not a hard material thing that could harm my head. But the bump was already enough to make my view blurred. I still didn’t have the time to adapt myself with that when Tora held my face with a tight grip.
“You want to know the correct answer?” Tora asked. For Tora need an answer, I nodded. “This is not about permission, Aoi. Your mistake is you didn’t let me know about it in the first place.”
“Y-your cellphone-”
Tora slapped me again. “You always use that reason! You knew you can’t call me, but why did you still go anyway!?”
I couldn’t keep it any longer. I had to tell him. “H-how long did you didn’t bring your cellphone with you, Tora?” I asked between my sobs.
“Oh, so that’s the problem?” Tora asked as he touched the wound on my forehead. “You use that as your reason to do anything you like, right? That means, as long as you couldn’t reach me, along the way you start making relationship with Reita?”
“Tora, I-” My words were stopped when Tora pressed the wound on my forehead. I screamed. I held his hand. “Stop it! Please, Tora! It hurts!! PLEASE!!”
Tora pulled his hand and I immediately covering my forehead. I could feel some wet and sticky material. I knew it. I’m bleeding again. Oh, my God…
“What did you do with him while I’m not with you?”
“W-we didn’t do anything…”
“Liar!” Tora yelled. “What, you met last Sunday inadvertently!? Like hell it was, Aoi! Tell me! You made an appointment with him before Sunday, right!? You talked to him, right, Aoi!?”
“At… the campus, Tora…” I lied. I had to do it. I don’t know what Tora would do if he knew that I met Reita at his work place.
“Campus?” Tora snorted. “It’s impossible for me to ask Kai to follow you wherever you go, right, Aoi!? Can’t you make me believe in you, Aoi!? Just once!?”
Believe in me? God, please. I couldn’t stop thinking Tora was with Ruki when he didn’t bring his cellphone with him. Yet, I’m the one to be blame on for cheating him. I didn’t do it, Tora. I didn’t cheat on you. Reita and I are just-
“Once again, if I find out that you still have ANY relationship with Reita, I’ll-” Tora’s cellphone ringed. “Fuck! Why at a time like this!?” Tora kept swearing as he searched for his cellphone.
I don’t know. I, don’t, know. There was something that pushed me to escape from this place. I tried my best to move. Maybe for my movement was too slow, Tora didn’t even notice when I’m moving. He was too busy to search for his cellphone. Fortunately, everything was even getting easier when Tora found his cellphone. He left the bedroom, and I’m alone here. It looked like he didn’t want me to hear who he was talking to. Oh, please. Like it’s the most important thing that I should know at a time like this…
I tried to sit. I used both of my hands to support my body that felt so rigid. I had to fight all this pain on my body…
Putting down my feet from the bed in this condition was not an easy thing. Every movement will deliver all the pain from whole body to my head. It’s not some pleasant thing to feel. Oh, my… Tora’s bedroom floor was covered with carpet. But why it’s still felt so cold?
Now, I have to stand. Or, should I crawl instead? All of my clothes were scattered on the carpet. Why should I torture myself with straightened my body to bend it again later? Tora, how could you do this to me? Did you ever think that this pain would last until few days…?
“Can’t you be patient!?”
It’s Tora’s voice. I was a little shocked when I heard those words. But I didn’t find Tora’s existence in this room. It looked like he was still talking on the telephone. I didn’t know who Tora was talking to. I couldn’t think about it when at the same time, I’m still trembling, trying to find a way to get away from this place.
Oh, please. Wearing jeans with this condition was really hard as hell. It felt very gnawing. Tora really didn’t have to scratch my thigh, really. I don’t know why he always did that as he did it to me. And now, I’ve just realized: Tora snapped all of my shirt’s buttons. I had to find - at least - a jacket for-
Tora’s bedroom door was opened. I turned my head, and there, Tora was standing. Tora looked at me. His right hand was still holding his cellphone right to his ear. I didn’t have any time left to find any jacket at all. At a time like this, Tora would-
“I’ll call you later,” Tora said as he turned off his cellphone.
God… Please… help me…
“Where do you think you’re going?” Tora took steps closer to me.
“I… have to go… home-”
“Who gave you a permission to leave this place?” Tora stopped right in front of me.
“I… have to finish something, Tora… please…”
He slapped me again. “I’m not done with this yet, Aoi!” Tora yelled at me. “You will stay here until I let you go home!”
“I have a paper that must be collected tomorrow, Tora…” I just didn’t know what to say anymore. I know it’s a lame excuse. It’s so much lame for an excuse. I guess I took too much hit on my head it giving an impact to my brain. Now, I can’t think properly about anything.
“Paper?” Tora snorted. I could hear a mocking note in that laughter. “What paper, Aoi? You think you can go to campus tomorrow with your current condition?”
“I-I need to-”
“NO!!” Tora grabbed my hair again. “Even if you have to give that paper tomorrow, you still can’t go to campus tomorrow! What will you say if there anyone who ask you about your wounds, Aoi!?”
“I-”
Tora’s cellphone ringed again. He was swearing again. Tora let me go and he answered the phone. “What now!?”
At a time like this, I won’t have the time to find a jacket to covering my wounds in my body. I could only depend on my shirt even I couldn’t be buttoned it again… I wore my shirt… and… there’s no other way. I have to run…
“HEY!?!”
It was Tora’s shout when I ran passed him to his living room. I took my bag that was still lying on the floor. There, I saw my necklace, the one that I couldn’t wear anymore. I took it, and ran to the front door. I took my shoes; I didn’t have time to put my shoes on. With panic, I unlocked the door, opened the door in a hurry, and ran out of Tora’s apartment. I hugged all of my things, include my shoes. I didn’t really care about my bare feet. All I need to do now is run… Tora’s still calling at me… he asked me to come back…
I ran. I ran until the end of the corridor and stopped right in front of the elevator. Still in panic, I pressed the button over and over again. I just wanted the elevator doors to open as soon as possible…
…or I’m going to die…
“AOI!!”
The elevator door was opened, and I got into the elevator hurriedly. Inside the elevator, I pressed the ‘close’ button over and over again. I wanted the door to close before Tora had the opportunity to catch me.
No. I didn’t see him. I didn’t see Tora until the elevator door was closed. The elevator door was protecting me from the madman. Then, I pressed the ‘1st floor’ button inside the elevator.
I tried to catch my breath. I tried to do it my best ‘cause it’s so hard to make my heart beating in its normal pace again. My tears were not stopping either. All of my things fell as such when I could no longer give power to both of my hands.
I covered my face with hands. I leaned on the cold wall of the elevator. I cried. I couldn’t stand any longer. Slowly, I fell on the floor and sit there. I hugged myself. My sobbing sound echoed inside the elevator. The pain in my whole body didn’t give me any help either. It’s throbbing… it hurts… and in such condition…
I don’t know where I should go.
Tora would probably chase me to my apartment.
I can’t go home…
Where…
Anyone I know…
…
Reita…
Reita…
Slowly, I reached my shoes and put it on. My hands were still shaking, but I had to finish all of these before the elevator reach the first floor…
Done with my shoes, I took my sling bag and hanged it on my right shoulder. I let it crossed to the left side of my hip to help my shirt - that was couldn’t be buttoned - covering my body. I tried to ignore the pain from my wound on my right shoulder. I had to last until I find a safer place.
Then, a shiny object that was still lying on the elevator floor stole my attention: it was the necklace…
I bend to took it.
The wing was broken. Perhaps it was left at Tora’s apartment. I couldn’t go back there to take the wing part.
If Reita see this… what will he say to me?
Reita might be angry… he probably will be very disappointed…
But…
I held the necklace in my tight grip… I didn’t have any other option… I couldn’t go home, and I didn’t have any other place to hide myself…
I hope Reita will understand…
I was surprised when I heard a clink sound and the elevator doors were opened. I’ve reached the first floor…
“Aoi?”
I was shoked when I saw someone stood in front of me: Kai…
I bumped him and ran away, out from the building. I ran and I ran as I withstand with the pain that made my head throbbed. I bet Kai could see the blood on my forehead. But I couldn’t stop. I ran, ran, ran, and-
A taxi!
I didn’t have to think twice to stretch my left hand. I thanked to anything in this world for making the taxi stopped. The taxi passenger door was opened, and I hurriedly get into the taxi.
Right before the door closed, I could still hear the voice.
“Aoi!”
I was shocked. I looked back and saw Kai was standing in front of the apartment building.
“Where are you going, Sir?” the driver asked.
I looked at the driver. With a low voice - I still couldn’t produce a loud voice enough - I said the address to him. It was Reita’s address. The driver nodded. I glad the he could still hear my voice. He started to drive the car. He took me away from Kai, from the building… from Tora…
I opened my sling bag and took Ogre. I shut the black cellphone down. After that, I took Chizuru and searched for Reita’s number.
Oh, no. Why now? I didn’t get Reita’s number yet when my white cellphone’s screen went blank. It’s out of battery.
Now I couldn’t call Reita. I just wanted to meet him, God. Why I just couldn’t do that simple thing?
“Are you okay, Son?” the driver suddenly asked me.
“Eh?” I didn’t understand. The way he called me has changed. From the middle mirror inside the car, I could see the driver was sometimes looking at me. I bet that’s why he knew about my estimate age.
“I’m sorry for being impolite, but… I just can’t do nothing knowing you’re having those bruises. Someone… hurt you?”
“Oh… this…” I touched my forehead cautiously. “I’m… okay… Sir…”
“Are you sure you’re okay, Son? Those bruises might be infected…”
“It’s alright, Sir… just… take me to that address…”
The drive sighed. “Fine then. It’s all up to you,” said the driver. “But one thing, Son…”
“Yes?”
“It’s just a suggestion. I’m not insisting you to do it… but, if it possible, just stay away from anyone that made you like this…”
I forced myself to smile. “Thank you, Sir…” That was the only thing I could say to him.
I sighed… If only I could do that…
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In front of Reita’s apartment building, I got out of the car. The driver nodded politely at me. I reciprocate it my best as I could still feel the sting in my head. The taxi moved and left me alone there. I gasped when my sight blurred suddenly. I held my head with my right hand as my left hand search something to support my shaky body.
No… please… not now… at least, let me see Reita first.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I tried to collect all the energy I have left. As I exhaled slowly, I opened my eyes. I looked at the white building, and I entered it. I searched for the elevator position.
Far at my right, I found the elevator. I walked there. My sight got even more blur. I had to pushed myself to focused my view so that I could looked at where I stepped my feet.
I stopped right in front of the elevator door. It’s not long, lucky me. Just right after I pressed the elevator’s button, the door was opened. I entered the elevator and pressed button number three inside the elevator.
The elevator door was closed and I waited, again. It was already the second time I waited inside an elevator. The different was this time, I didn’t panic like before. Soon, I can meet with Reita.
I’ve reached the third floor. The elevator door was opened. Really, this was the first time I walked inside this building. I didn’t even know which Reita’s apartment door was. The corridor I saw in front of me insisted me to think really hard. Whereas, my head was already hurt enough to let me think harder than I capable to do that time.
Wait… if I’m not mistaken, Reita’s window was placed right at the most edge of this building. That means, Reita’s room was placed right at the end of this corridor.
I walked until the last door in the corridor. I stopped and stood in front of the door. I looked at the nameplate beside the door: Suzuki.
It was a big relieve. That’s Reita’s family name. If I made any mistake about Reita’s door, I don’t know what to do anymore ‘cause I don’t feel like having more energy left to search for it. I sighed at ease. My smile was appeared on my face offhanded. Then, I knocked on the door and waited for awhile.
No one opened the door, no one answered from inside. I pressed the bell button beside the nameplate and waited again.
Reita still didn’t open it. I still didn’t hear anyone answered the bell.
I was blinded about the time. I didn’t know what time was it. Could it be that Reita was still working?
Oh, no…
My head was getting its most dizziness. As if all the wounds in my body were throbbing and stomping my heart at the same time. It hurts. It hurt so much.
I held my head.
Then, all I could see… was… only darkness…
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A/N: there..I hope it's fine like this..
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