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I guess I feel as I always have when I am feeling as pensive as I have been these last few weeks. With how crazy everything was on the 4th and then days later having Nate pass from complications, how could I not? I felt this way in February around my birthday and decided to let the sails change my direction. I find that though I am in a different ( Read more... ) -
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I sit here listening to music, staring out the window at the grey sky and I don't know how I got here. Was it a gradual happening or sudden ( Read more... ) -
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after reading through posts from the last three years i am sick. ill. my stomach has turned. -
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It's been a long time since I've posted. Lately I feel like I am losing control over my life even though so much of it has been going in the right direction forward. The problem is my weight and my eating as its been out of control, I want to be healthy and I want to be confident and I want to look good and feel good and I don't know how to get ( Read more... ) -
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I wish making the choice to not do this anymore was easier as time went on. Yet I feel like it gets harder and harder as the nights pass.
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Maybe I'm just not cut out for this anymore.
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if you want to be in my life act like it. show me. words aren't enough anymore.
don't come over, drink my drinks and smoke my smoke, expect to have sex and leave. you'll go home quicker than you came here very disappointed. we aren't in a relationship anymore, sorry not sorry.
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After making the conscious decision to no longer continue any further contact with Robin the days are dull...the ones where he crosses my mind. The nights are spent anxious that he will just show up at my house if I am home without any plans and waking up without him here is unbearable. However, part of me feels like the man I loved and knew and ( Read more... ) -
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When you first start getting to know someone and learn that you've let yourself trust them. You don't think they're ever going to lie to you, not have your best interest at heart and usually put it before theirs because you love them and you believe that when you are in love it can change your whole life. Out of all my relationships since I've been ( Read more... ) -
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The thought of him leaving and not being in my life is...it suffocates me. I feel alone, not in the sense like I am lonely. But that I am actually alone. Robin is my other half and since becoming involved with him he has become the only thing I have in my life. Without him I am truly alone.
But I am sitting in suffering with him here. I feel as ( Read more... )