How do you get what you want when the best advice given to you is that you will find it when you stop trying? But then a conscious effort to stop trying is in turn still trying, right ( Read more... )

A couple days ago, I had a long conversation with a friend about things. He started off by saying, "You know how you always say you want a boyfriend? Well, I think things will happen when you stop looking- things happen for a reason." This led to a conversation about what past relationships I have had. I told him that Tom called a few weeks ago via ( Read more... )

Today is the one year anniversary of my grandmother's death. A women who raised 6 kids. She had 19 grandchildren and when she died 19 great-grandchildren. That number has risen to 23 in the past year. She was an extraordinary woman. You could tell that even if you only met her once. I pity those in my life that will never have the chance to meet ( Read more... )

I have been putting more effort into my appearance recently. I feel like it's the one thing I can control. It's true, I am trying to impress a particular person at the same time, but it's also comtrol. I feel like shit, life is out of control, and as Jen puts it, tomorrow is my 'special day' which makes me depressed. The best way I know how to ( Read more... )

So, last month I work on three shows which kept me busy, but also brought on a little stress. I got this horrible migraine that lasted for weeks. My neurologist put me on Topamax. This medicine fucks with your body (http ( Read more... )

Sometimes the loneliness gets to me. I mean I spend my days enjoying the company of classmates and having conversations left and right. But at the end of the day, it's just me and Allie, and not only does Allie have a boyfriend, but when she goes back to the place that she calls home, there are tons of friends around for her. I have no one. I have ( Read more... )

Only in Lynn ( Read more... )

put an x in the appropriate response according to you ( Read more... )

(A is for age:) 19 ( Read more... )

So, I have a major crush right now. He is amazingly handsome, funny, nice, and cute (there is a difference between cute and handsome). It's not one of those "he doesn't know I exist" situations. It's more that I don't know if he looks at me "that way". Now, I can't even make the first move because of the details of our current relationship. I know ( Read more... )