I feel like I want to cry, or scream, coz its so fucked up in my head, in this shite grotesque mess of a human being that doesn't seem to feel, or to think, in fact just stands and walks about now and again. I feel totally worthless. I feel totally stupid. I don't kow how to explain it. I'm quite scared of what'll happen, or at least of what ( Read more... )

Jen is back. Just for a few days, until tuesday, but she is back :o) Very pleased about that. No-one cried....i was shocked ( Read more... )

hrmm.... havent written this for a while...or a while in my books anyways..:P ( Read more... )

well, tomorrow im at school. How shite. That means there are two weeks to the exams and nothing is penetrating anymore. Hrmm... i don't know if ive somehow penetrated too much to revise anymore. Or some invisible barrier is now oin my head preventing me from studying. Invisible barriers in my head. Hehe. Im seriously loosing it today ( Read more... )

yes...typing rather bad.....but me left arm aint working right at the moment

Me birthday yesterday. WOOHOO ( Read more... )

Look up twat in the dictionary. See that little mugshot...just beside where it says adjective? Yeah, thats me. Be glad you didn't see me at lunch. Paul in front of me. Hrm... He turns round to talk to Daniel..not so bad...i can handle that...then says something to me....I go.....giggly. Why?????? Why ( Read more... )

excuse me while i flush myself down a toilet and never come back up ( Read more... )

Feeeeeck!!!! I spoke to Jamie today. I felt really guilty in all honesty man...coz linz should have been doing that and not me. I mentioned her and he looked blank. I was like..."Thank Christ" in all honesty, coz then he doesn't really know who she is...well..i know what i fecking mean ( Read more... )