Oh. My. God...
Feeeeeck!!!! I spoke to Jamie today. I felt really guilty in all honesty man...coz linz should have been doing that and not me. I mentioned her and he looked blank. I was like..."Thank Christ" in all honesty, coz then he doesn't really know who she is...well..i know what i fecking mean!!
And i saw paul. Hehe, it was a bit of an arse, coz i want to say something to him, maybe to seem even remotely interesting and not the person in the corner...maybe not just the blip in the background, but actually meaning something. That could explain why i keep staring at him and why he catches me:(
In another note...feeling slightly better today. This is the first ebtry for me and you don't know what yesterday was like, but i aint filling you in :) Ok, Ok, twas shitey. I need to invent something for music, look up what i want to do in the future, sort out studying and crap like that. but i don't want to think about it. I scares me a lot. The future scares me for some obscure reason i don't know.
Alison. I don't want to see her ever again. It feels uncomfortable, and strange. :oS I don't want to go back. But my mother wants me to. Its obvious. So i have to i suppose. If she's happy, then i don't get moaned at. And jen doesn't get on at me either coz mum is happy and willing to put up with her.
Ach....i'll leave it at that.
Don't get auld :) xxXx
And i saw paul. Hehe, it was a bit of an arse, coz i want to say something to him, maybe to seem even remotely interesting and not the person in the corner...maybe not just the blip in the background, but actually meaning something. That could explain why i keep staring at him and why he catches me:(
In another note...feeling slightly better today. This is the first ebtry for me and you don't know what yesterday was like, but i aint filling you in :) Ok, Ok, twas shitey. I need to invent something for music, look up what i want to do in the future, sort out studying and crap like that. but i don't want to think about it. I scares me a lot. The future scares me for some obscure reason i don't know.
Alison. I don't want to see her ever again. It feels uncomfortable, and strange. :oS I don't want to go back. But my mother wants me to. Its obvious. So i have to i suppose. If she's happy, then i don't get moaned at. And jen doesn't get on at me either coz mum is happy and willing to put up with her.
Ach....i'll leave it at that.
Don't get auld :) xxXx