Squirrel and I are at a great point in our relationship i have got a promise ring and after that things have been on the up and up. I guess it was just some insurance that i will stay and wont leave but the fights get resolved and we don't fight as much period. It would br little minor disagreements. I really feel as if i have the highest degree of ( Read more... )

school life sucks a bunch i hate parts of my life right now. i dont have control of certain things and the one person who i love and they know who they are i cant show it like i used to could have. its like something is holdin me back and it aint that i dont love her anymore. i guess the bottom line like i always say is im scared and there isnt ( Read more... )

well it has been forever and a day since i wrote in this thing. i hate school cause it is kickin my ass i miss shira and wish we could live together sometimes but other times i realize that right now we are two different people and need our own living space and when we are finish havin our college life fun then we can move in. plus it gives us ( Read more... )

reality is starting to set in I HAVE MY OWN SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm in love with shira "squirrel, poo-face, love " smith

i dont know how to explain the way i feel . its an emotion i cant explain i haven't been like this before. i could always gauge or just know what is going on with me even though i may say i dont know, but this time its foreal i DONT know! i should be happy cause im finally moving out of my parents house. its a dream come ture. But im not im....... ( Read more... )

all in all i just want us to be happy, i dont like the thought that i cant make you happy and the more you say things i get more and more discouraged. i hate that i put you through so much i hate that i feel the way i do i hate that i get negative dreams and feelings i hate not being able to be the way i once was. i hate you cant understand me i ( Read more... )

things are really carzy and i dont know what better to do then to not fight it but to just let happen happen, cause if i try and control it then i could fuck it up. Other than just puttin in lil inserts of my opinions but to give a full directionon certain things can back fire. I love her and i guess i have to be the bigger person and just let her ( Read more... )

Well i left town on thursday and went down to O-burg to stay with my homeboy Val for Homecoming weekend. I wouldn't say i was drunk the whole time more like really tipsy cause i wasnt sick nor was i falling all over the place. I finally got to see all my girls Theresa, Unique, Tiffany (TI), Risha, and Valiria. It just felt really good to see all my ( Read more... )

Looking at old journals really had me thinking tonite i mean things between me and shira are movin in the right direction but its like ion know kause looking at her 10/8/05 still hurts that she WANTED someone elst to fill a gap and she said that he understands her and that was a major issue with us that i didnt. i dont know i just dont know. I just ( Read more... )