i'm in cyprus. it's great. here is an update on my life, from an email to my mom ( Read more... )

i'm feeling everything from far away. like when i was sitting on the couch shaking after i found out i was shaking those regular things away. this is too close, i was too far away, the volume was too high and low and the whole thing was beyond hearing anyway. i wanted the week back. i had been thinking of her. she was alive. yesterday was so ( Read more... )

i have no idea where this is going to go. one or two rather large changes lately but i don't feel like doing an update. tonight i am very moody, switching between feeling good and bad about things depending on i don't know what. it's very uncomfortable. last night i had a sad dream, and then today looked through my much ado script. my dream ( Read more... )

something i really take for granted is my health. i realize that sometimes when there's something wrong, but once i get better i forget it and it's never anything too serious anyway. but to be a healthy person with a body that works, not having to worry about death or degeneration very much is a pretty incredible thing. even when a lot is going ( Read more... )

break is almost over.

i really, really, really, really, REALLY don't want to go back to school.

i didn't do anything this break other than go to southern california for a few days but it was exactly how i wanted it.

i'm trying not to think about going back but it's not working.

i accidentally left my bag with my computer and all of my homework in it in this guy's car who gave me a ride back from santa cruz, and it's sunday night and i STILL don't have it and i can't do anything but wait for him to call me now, ugh ( Read more... )

oh yeah one large part of my life i neglected to mention is that i basically don't eat anymore. the dining hall is disgusting and i hate EVERYTHING about it, and i've unfortunately adopted the idea of 'no food is better than bad food'. i'll eat at the dining hall once, MAYBE but rarely twice a day (i think i've eaten all 3 meals there once?) and ( Read more... )

this is probably the song of basically every young couple frustrated with the romantic limitations of youth, but i don't care because it just says it so well...AND it's such a great song! my ringtone when chris calls me ( Read more... )

haven't heard this song in a while ( Read more... )

basically it would be more accurate to say i go into phases where i'm NOT completely in love with elliott smith. i actually don't get people that don't like him...do you...not like music...? if anyone can shed some light on the subject...

it will make no difference to me anyway but seriously, SERIOUSLY, elliott smith. holy shit.