godsister madness
haven't heard this song in a while...
my godsister judy (friends with hurley from lost who makes $400,000 an episode by the way...WHAT) is an actress and she got a part on ER as a doctor! it's not decided yet whether she'll be a regular or not, they're going to see if they like her...i hope they do! either way i get to see her on ER at least a few times! i mean they'd better like her, why wouldn't they, she's seriously one of the most wonderful people on earth
...aside, of course, from my other godsisters, which transitions nicely into the fact that i get to see solina tomorrow! and spend the weekend with her and her lovely friends! basically the only thing that made this week worth enduring but anyway we're going to spend a couple days partying in a cabin and i'm really excited. it's going to be nice ESPECIALLY to be with one of my really close female friends...i really miss those relationships...and it'll also be really nice to be hanging out with a bunch of people who already know me and are cool. overall, i wish it were 24 hours from now...and that in the 24 hours i skipped over i got an uncharacteristicly great volume of work done.
i am lying if at any point i say, for the remainder of this quarter, that i don't have homework. i have WAYYYYY too much to do, basically until the quarter ends, and i don't want to do any of it. ie, study for my american popular music midterm (i didn't go monday or ALL of last week...i don't even remember the last time i went actually, and REALLY don't remember the last time i did the homework), write a million essays for porter core, and try to recover my grade for human evolution which is the only class i actually like and yet i fucked up really badly in it. ewww. FUCK ME because i am SUCH a bad student.
this quarter went by soooooo quickly, yet pre-college feels like a very long time ago. i really just want the quarter to be over; i hate 2/3 of my classes and only like the third (i require passion!), if i get my ideal classes for next quarter it will be amazing, i miss my friends and i miss home. i need to get my head on straight. i did not properly prepare for this. i don't know what that preperation could have possibly been but i didn't have it, and maybe next quarter i'll do better. 'do better' in a lot of ways; academically, socially, but most of all with my attitude. basically that will inspire the other two. i've felt stuck but haven't made the proper effort to unstick myself, and i can't expect life to fall perfectly at my feet.
i guess a problem i've been feeling is that my life feels stagnant; i've moved away to college and entered into the world that entails, but i don't feel like i've changed at all. nearly 2 somewhat overwhelming months and a complete shift in lifestyle, yet this could be a dream i had in august that i wake up from the next day for all it's matured me. it's not the way i like to live my life. again, part of that is my fault because i wasn't really ready for change when the time for college came. the stasis i wanted externally translated into internal stasis which just kinda makes the situation worse. adaptation is your friend. i will work on it.
my godsister judy (friends with hurley from lost who makes $400,000 an episode by the way...WHAT) is an actress and she got a part on ER as a doctor! it's not decided yet whether she'll be a regular or not, they're going to see if they like her...i hope they do! either way i get to see her on ER at least a few times! i mean they'd better like her, why wouldn't they, she's seriously one of the most wonderful people on earth
...aside, of course, from my other godsisters, which transitions nicely into the fact that i get to see solina tomorrow! and spend the weekend with her and her lovely friends! basically the only thing that made this week worth enduring but anyway we're going to spend a couple days partying in a cabin and i'm really excited. it's going to be nice ESPECIALLY to be with one of my really close female friends...i really miss those relationships...and it'll also be really nice to be hanging out with a bunch of people who already know me and are cool. overall, i wish it were 24 hours from now...and that in the 24 hours i skipped over i got an uncharacteristicly great volume of work done.
i am lying if at any point i say, for the remainder of this quarter, that i don't have homework. i have WAYYYYY too much to do, basically until the quarter ends, and i don't want to do any of it. ie, study for my american popular music midterm (i didn't go monday or ALL of last week...i don't even remember the last time i went actually, and REALLY don't remember the last time i did the homework), write a million essays for porter core, and try to recover my grade for human evolution which is the only class i actually like and yet i fucked up really badly in it. ewww. FUCK ME because i am SUCH a bad student.
this quarter went by soooooo quickly, yet pre-college feels like a very long time ago. i really just want the quarter to be over; i hate 2/3 of my classes and only like the third (i require passion!), if i get my ideal classes for next quarter it will be amazing, i miss my friends and i miss home. i need to get my head on straight. i did not properly prepare for this. i don't know what that preperation could have possibly been but i didn't have it, and maybe next quarter i'll do better. 'do better' in a lot of ways; academically, socially, but most of all with my attitude. basically that will inspire the other two. i've felt stuck but haven't made the proper effort to unstick myself, and i can't expect life to fall perfectly at my feet.
i guess a problem i've been feeling is that my life feels stagnant; i've moved away to college and entered into the world that entails, but i don't feel like i've changed at all. nearly 2 somewhat overwhelming months and a complete shift in lifestyle, yet this could be a dream i had in august that i wake up from the next day for all it's matured me. it's not the way i like to live my life. again, part of that is my fault because i wasn't really ready for change when the time for college came. the stasis i wanted externally translated into internal stasis which just kinda makes the situation worse. adaptation is your friend. i will work on it.