thanksgiving etc
i accidentally left my bag with my computer and all of my homework in it in this guy's car who gave me a ride back from santa cruz, and it's sunday night and i STILL don't have it and i can't do anything but wait for him to call me now, ugh.
so i'm updating cause i feel aimless.
mac came home for thanksgiving! it was a suprise (that my mom kind of ruined for me...i swear it's impossible for me to be surprised with this family) for everyone including mackenzie and it was awesome. i KNEW she was coming though, i've been having dreams about her and stuff...but it was still AMAZING bursting into jessica's room and running right into my best friend's embrace. which i have not experienced in...FOUR MONTHS. ew.
actually this whole weekend aside from the missing bag drama and the fact that i do have to go back to school where mountains of homework and studying and trying not to fail await me has been just insanely good. with mac home, ian caitlin and eva were the only ones missing from the midnight society and it was sooooo fun. others missing were steph and ariel, and rachael was home but i missed her which SUCKED and actually there were a lot of people i didn't see that were here...this sentence needs editing...but it was so good to feel at home again!
i was sitting next to mac last night and was just reaching over and playing with these strings on her pants and just fiddling around with her stuff...it was sooooo nice to have someone next to me that i am so comfortable with that i will rub her fuzzy socks as though they were my own without either of us thinking about it. you know what i mean?
now it sucks because going back to school tomorrow will be SO HARD but i have new things to think about from people that love me and i only have to wait like two and a half weeks before i see them all again...ugh finals though and my 36 porter projects, it's going to be SUCH A SHITTY two and a half weeks. no, bad attitude.
everyone is so sick of hearing about how much i love chris but i had a really good weekend with him as well and it became more clear to me than ever how necessary he is in my life. probably dangerously necessary but he's not going anywhere. so many sequential days to spend together! and he spent the night without my parents caring even though i didn't ask!
oh yeah, thanksgiving was amazing. i've eaten sooooooo much good food while i'm home...ugh...it also just occurred to me that i actually might be healthier if i smoked more at school, because then the food would be more tolerable and i'd be MUCH more inclined to eat it, right? too bad i'm going to be too busy with work to have smoking time. oh how i wish i were one of those people who can smoke AND work!
now i'm going to do the one thing i can kind of do because i want to hang out with mac in the time that i still don't have my computer. to sum up my entry: i love mac. i love chris. i love my friends and home. i LOVE GOOD FOOD. i hate work. i want christmas break (chris's brother's break is from november [yes i said november] 20th until january 2nd. FUCK). i really really really hate work/failing classes.
so i'm updating cause i feel aimless.
mac came home for thanksgiving! it was a suprise (that my mom kind of ruined for me...i swear it's impossible for me to be surprised with this family) for everyone including mackenzie and it was awesome. i KNEW she was coming though, i've been having dreams about her and stuff...but it was still AMAZING bursting into jessica's room and running right into my best friend's embrace. which i have not experienced in...FOUR MONTHS. ew.
actually this whole weekend aside from the missing bag drama and the fact that i do have to go back to school where mountains of homework and studying and trying not to fail await me has been just insanely good. with mac home, ian caitlin and eva were the only ones missing from the midnight society and it was sooooo fun. others missing were steph and ariel, and rachael was home but i missed her which SUCKED and actually there were a lot of people i didn't see that were here...this sentence needs editing...but it was so good to feel at home again!
i was sitting next to mac last night and was just reaching over and playing with these strings on her pants and just fiddling around with her stuff...it was sooooo nice to have someone next to me that i am so comfortable with that i will rub her fuzzy socks as though they were my own without either of us thinking about it. you know what i mean?
now it sucks because going back to school tomorrow will be SO HARD but i have new things to think about from people that love me and i only have to wait like two and a half weeks before i see them all again...ugh finals though and my 36 porter projects, it's going to be SUCH A SHITTY two and a half weeks. no, bad attitude.
everyone is so sick of hearing about how much i love chris but i had a really good weekend with him as well and it became more clear to me than ever how necessary he is in my life. probably dangerously necessary but he's not going anywhere. so many sequential days to spend together! and he spent the night without my parents caring even though i didn't ask!
oh yeah, thanksgiving was amazing. i've eaten sooooooo much good food while i'm home...ugh...it also just occurred to me that i actually might be healthier if i smoked more at school, because then the food would be more tolerable and i'd be MUCH more inclined to eat it, right? too bad i'm going to be too busy with work to have smoking time. oh how i wish i were one of those people who can smoke AND work!
now i'm going to do the one thing i can kind of do because i want to hang out with mac in the time that i still don't have my computer. to sum up my entry: i love mac. i love chris. i love my friends and home. i LOVE GOOD FOOD. i hate work. i want christmas break (chris's brother's break is from november [yes i said november] 20th until january 2nd. FUCK). i really really really hate work/failing classes.