and then that dark fades to light again, and is gone..

and at the end of this seemingly endless tunel of light which I have been traveling thru..  every day of my life, I finally spot..  a single ray of dark..  and it grows..  and then the light is pushed back by the dark..  and now, everything is not dark..  but a very dim grey..  but it's close :)

You
you have
you have me
you have asked me
you have asked me and I have said nothing

Do you want, until death seperates you,
to be faithful to her for all days

No

Do you want, until death, which would seperate,
to love her, even in bad days

No

I Bloody Pwn teh Stereo!!  I got tired of waiting and hoping to afford a new one, so I decided to fix mine..  I took it out, found teh fuse box first..  Open it up, and look at the fuses..  debate for 10 minutes over whether or not it looks blown..  decide it does, Take it out, set it aside, and jack in..  run it for ~10 minutes loadless..  No ( Read more... )

I just cut again..  Not gonna tell ashley though, Oh no..  she never has time for me anyway, so why would she even want to know, and why would she even care ?
It held back some tears at another thought that came to mind just as she "was busy" again..  she needn't know about teh thought either, so I won't write it here..  Bye!

I'm hallucinating.  Out of teh corners of meh eyes..  and even straight on..  I always see something..  there.  Something moves..  something changes..  but..  when I turn to look, it's gone..  :)  Losing your sanity is fun :)

Aaahh..  the world is as it should be again.  Teh little birdie I wrote about some time back, Raven..  She left.  I now had no little birdie.  I am alone again, and sad still.  It was my fault, as always.  I drove away a friend of hers.  I hurt her.  She said I couldn't..  I told her when we met that I would.  that I would find a way..  and I'd ( Read more... )

once again I cry.. and all is light.. a Bright, Piercing light.. Blinding and hurtful, like daylight.. I force myself to look.. Anywhere, so I can find some refuge.. and in the distance, I see a calm, comforting, peaceful dark.. I walk toward it, and it grows larger.. like the dark at the end of the tunnel.. I feel the scorching heat ( Read more... )

Damnit!!  I wanna bloody hate Michelle..  I wanna think to myself "She hurt you, Hate her and move on" and have it be that easy..  But..  I know that everything she did was in self defense for the Things that I did for the same reason..  I felt Neglected, and she felt smothered, and it Pushed both of us too far and apart ( Read more... )

I've got a wierd conundrum..  Night before last, I actually had a dream..  Didn't get any sleep, as usual, but I had a dream..  Dun't remember most of it..  But I do remember one key detail..  A Name..  I know it's not my name, 'cause it's a lady's name..  But I can't figgure out who..  Can *ANYONE* help ?  the name is..  *hesitates ( Read more... )