I'm contemplating reviving my livejournal, give me some feedback.

in the meanwhile, there is one thing I feel like blogging about:

I really like this girl _xgirlfriend, but she seems to think I'm just joking when I say I like her, she shrugs off my advances like a superhero shrugs off the attacks of a fly. it's as if she thinks I'm not serious or I'm just ( Read more... )

just a reminder people, I'm still here, still alove, I don't hate any of you, but... I don't update this ever anymore. it's not to say I never will, but for the time being, indefinate hiatus.

I look up at my past ( Read more... )

I've decided something :)

I'm not going to say what :)

If you guess, I'll deny all your guesses profusely, and pausing on random ones as if contemplating, or they hit close :)

you won't find out what I decided :)

And no, you aren't anyone specific, the you is anyone who reads this :)

I've been recently inclined to wonder if anyone would even notice if I were to simply stop being here..  and I realized..  Noone would miss me.  not a single person.  a few would feel my absense lightly, one less screen open on their busy desktop..  but that's it..  Noone would feel bad for more than 10 minutes..  Noone would wonder where I went ( Read more... )

About 3 Minutes ago I had a dream..  a Good dream..  Dreaming at all is a rare thing..  It being a GOOD dream..  that's damn near impossible..

The dream was about madoka, my son (pictured here) and his mother, Khrysta, the one holding him in the pic..  Mainly about madoka ( Read more... )

it's been a while since I cut..  I wanna cut..  I've been non-stop...  down..  a sad, sullen feeling..  nothing much seems to matter, but I plod onward anyway..  I know cutting would help..  would make me happy again for a bit..  but..  I promised michelle I'd do my damndest not to..  and this isn't killing me feeling like this..  it's not going to ( Read more... )

And you don't seem to understand ( Read more... )

"If there is at least one person in your life whom you consider a close friend, and whom you would not have met without the internet, post this sentence in your journal."

soo many of them..  Bust most of all..  well..  I needn't say, I'm sure..

something came up..  I worked thru it..  other problems..  all have a solution..  I have everything in order, and every reason to be happy..  and I am..  But..  all day..  I have wanted to cry..  I don't know why..  Then I finally gave in and started..  and now i can't stop..  and I don't even know why I started in the first place..