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once again I cry.. and all is light.. a Bright, Piercing light.. Blinding and hurtful, like daylight.. I force myself to look.. Anywhere, so I can find some refuge.. and in the distance, I see a calm, comforting, peaceful dark.. I walk toward it, and it grows larger.. like the dark at the end of the tunnel.. I feel the scorching heat subside as I step into the dark.. It's now a comfy cool temperature.. I look around, and everywhere is dark like night.. a happy, peaceful place.. a person walks up to me.. a lady.. she looks familiar.. she asks me why I'm crying.. and I explain it as best I can.. and so she tries to comfort me.. I realize that she's my sister, and we talk a bit.. and then as I sob more.. we have the following interchange:
Christ: I've spent my time in this world, I wanna see what's next...
Sister: no kill yourself
her advice seems so.. good. I had been contemplating the idea for a while.. again.. and now.. Someone else actually suggests it, too.. hearing it from someone important, makes it seem like an even better idea.. I want to end this.. I don't want to be in this world anymore.. I don't like it here, I wanna move on to the next.. maybe find something good..
Christ: I've spent my time in this world, I wanna see what's next...
Sister: no kill yourself
her advice seems so.. good. I had been contemplating the idea for a while.. again.. and now.. Someone else actually suggests it, too.. hearing it from someone important, makes it seem like an even better idea.. I want to end this.. I don't want to be in this world anymore.. I don't like it here, I wanna move on to the next.. maybe find something good..