a little birdie wants me to write about her ( Read more... )

palladium: Not too long ago ( Read more... )

I knew life was too good to be true..  The cutting came back..  the tears came back..  The feelings came back..  And things were almost good without michelle there..  I finally pushed myself to delete her names from my Lists, but I can't block her..  I never could...  I used a new piece of glass this time, so the wounds are deeper, and there's more ( Read more... )

The badness is Coming back..  I see Michelle online..  I feel the feelings I had almost forgotten rushing back...  RO is on maintainance..  so I can't forget just yet...  I hope it washes away faster than before..  I hope I can last long enough not to cut.......  I hope I don't put missing on, 'cause if I do....  I WILL cut...

Life seems a bit better..  Found some people, Lost some people..  I seem to have lost myself..  He's in RO somewhere..  but that's good :)  I've been smiling almost non-stop for a few days now..  RO = Teh Good for forgetting :)

Overall, Life++

I'm still watching michelle on cam..  I'm kinda happy, kinda sad..  The future is still bleak..  and now I know..  I can NEVER have anyone else..  I DID hurt michelle, despite how I tried not to..  Failing in that, I deserve noone..  Noone who can hurt the one they love deserves to have anyone in their life anymore..  I'm contemplating killing ( Read more... )

I'm talking to michelle and watching her on cam..  It feels both good and horrible..  I'm hyappy that I can see her and feel close to her..  But then again, I also know it's just a feeling..  my heart aches wanting to hold her agian, wanting to tell her how much I love her..  wanting to have this be real, and happy, and forever..  but then again ( Read more... )

Me> I found your disk.. One place I never though to look, the Floppy drive. anyway, Come pick it up any time AFTER you talk to me on MSN and Yahoo, and AIM too if possible ( Read more... )

I went to a friend's wedding today, Didn't cry, spent the rest of the eve until RO went down playing Guardian for them all..  (3+ couples got married)  Endgame was a bust..  Everyone made the wrong choice..  Um..  Listening to Queen now, sitting here, tired..  Might get a Gator tank after Maintainance if I can find a wind weapon...  lately I've ( Read more... )

I seek death ( Read more... )