my conundrum.. the endgame
I seek death..
I seek it, however, as a means to an end..
Or rather, the end..
The end of my suffering..
But what if death isn't the end
I pause..
I want the pain to end..
I want it to go away..
In life, I can do something to ease it..
But in death..
I don't know.
In life, cutting helps, and Breaking things..
In death..
there may be nothing to cut with and nothing to break...
I'm not willing to Chance losing what minor reliefs I have..
It's barely tolerable with them..
if I die and it's not the end...
and there is no relief...
this is my conundrum...
should I risk it, take a chance, and spin the bottle..
or should I keep on barely existing and not living like I have been ?
these are the rules.. I'm clearing all my blocklists. I'm removing all bans. I'm leaving all my names on. If you love me vote I stay.. if Not, so be it.. I have a few people in mind, I'm counting based on their votes. if enough more people vote yet none of them do, So be it, they are the "total" and I'm going on a majority of them.. Decide my fate. Message me on AIM, Yahoo, MSN, or In game. Comment if you want, it doesn't count.. it's still appreciated tho.
I seek it, however, as a means to an end..
Or rather, the end..
The end of my suffering..
But what if death isn't the end
I pause..
I want the pain to end..
I want it to go away..
In life, I can do something to ease it..
But in death..
I don't know.
In life, cutting helps, and Breaking things..
In death..
there may be nothing to cut with and nothing to break...
I'm not willing to Chance losing what minor reliefs I have..
It's barely tolerable with them..
if I die and it's not the end...
and there is no relief...
this is my conundrum...
should I risk it, take a chance, and spin the bottle..
or should I keep on barely existing and not living like I have been ?
these are the rules.. I'm clearing all my blocklists. I'm removing all bans. I'm leaving all my names on. If you love me vote I stay.. if Not, so be it.. I have a few people in mind, I'm counting based on their votes. if enough more people vote yet none of them do, So be it, they are the "total" and I'm going on a majority of them.. Decide my fate. Message me on AIM, Yahoo, MSN, or In game. Comment if you want, it doesn't count.. it's still appreciated tho.