ok so i think i have finally figured guys out: once they get you interested in them and they know that you want them, they take advantage of that. then they completely cold shoulder you for awhile and just when you write them off and think to yourself "fuck him, he's being a complete asshole" and you are a bitch to them when they finally get in ( Read more... )

i am so beyond annoyed with my schedule this week ( Read more... )

i want to bash my head against something hard...like the desk i'm sitting at or possibly a mirror. i fucking hate being confused. jesus christ, i didn't fucking know that i'm supposed to be able to read people's goddamn minds. i'm not playing bullshit cat-and-mouse games. i will not ( Read more... )

i have to remember one very important thing: never make someone a priority if you are only an option to them.

sweet baby jesus i do NOT want to go to work. ok, so i never do, but i am dreading it more today than any other day ever! every last (full) weekend in september my town has its Annual Elk Festival. really, all this is is a bunch of "vendors" and a beer tent set up in the park. which is oh, about a football lengths field away from where i work ( Read more... )

most days i feel empty, but today i am suffocating ( Read more... )

so i need to lose some weight. i don't really like to exercise aside from going for walks when i can so i'm thinking i just need to diet. i figure if i eat just salads (with minimal low-fat dressing) and drink low-fat milk and eat plain grilled chicken and string cheese for protein i should lose some weight. but if any of you have any ( Read more... )

i'm not exactly sure why i'm updating....nothing is new or great these days. the majority of my posts lately have been downers. something good has to happen soon, right? i don't know ( Read more... )

on punching people in the throat: you should try it. do it to someone you hate; it will make you feel better and make you laugh at the same time while you watch them cry. if only we could make punching someone in their throat a part of our daily routine... what a great life that would be ( Read more... )

last night i had a dream that i was back at central taking classes and one of them just happened to be a medical class and it was taught by House. Mmm Mmm! anyway, in my dream he was the same as in the show, sarcastic and blunt and he asked a question and i wasn't sure if i was right so i didn't raise my hand. well he called on the people with ( Read more... )