infiltrate.I think it says a lot about someone's relationship with God when they can be without someone else's guidance and encouragement and still find themselves searching after God. It's so easy to pursue Him when everything and everyone you know is all about God, but when you're all alone to do things for yourself - when you have no one else to ( Read more... )

make it matter.I have struggled a lot in the past few years. I could blame it on a lot of things; growing older, maturing, being forced to rediscover who God is after a very harsh crash in my perfect Christian world a few years ago. And all of these things would be correct. I went through something a few years ago at my old church that stripped ( Read more... )

this is the countdown.Sometimes, okay all of the time, I really don't understand the trials and tests that I go through. There are some days I just want to scream out to God and ask Him what more He could possibly want from me. I've left everything, everyone I have known that I couldn't go on with. I have put aside the things holding me behind, ( Read more... )

the calm in the storm.You know, I used to read through the Psalms like it was almost a distant fairy tale I had no real connection with. I knew David faced lions and tigers and mighty armies and I knew his enemies chased him with the brutal goal of ending his life. I knew there were times David couldn’t see his help, but simply trusted in God that ( Read more... )

neverending.I’m beginning to understand not every choice brings about sin or no sin. Some choices bring about a separation of Presence. Not everything can make me go to hell. Some things just take God away from me. So what’s more important to me: my flesh or God’s Presence ( Read more... )

wondering why.It’s almost been a year since I’ve last actually wrote in this blog. I guess you could say I’ve spent a year caught in limbo. I wasn’t sure what I wanted to do with my life any more or even if I thought my life was worth having. Not that I became suicidal but there were those typical thoughts of hopelessness and a lost purpose or ( Read more... )

oh morning star, You truly are everything.I don't even know where to begin with all that's happened since I've last updated. Pride is a destructive nature to maintain in your life and I hope with everything in me, people begin to see it as such - just like I've been discovering. Being a "youth leader" with my youth group is a high honor for me; I' ( Read more... )

the wide & the narrow.It's amazing how hard it is sometimes to keep to the ways of God. It didn't used to feel this hard. I know it's because I'm actually headed in the right direction, no matter how loud I hear that negative voice in my ear that I'm making the wrong choices in life. That's why the voice is there; the enemy comes to steal, kill and ( Read more... )

salutations.I would love to introduce myself to you, being that this is my first blog and all. But to be honest, that's not what I'm here for. Not that I'm attempting to hide behind some computer screen and type the politics of all that I believe in because no one will recognize me - no, it's not that. It's just that I want a place where I can ( Read more... )