After class, I knew I had three things to do: 1) put that registration sticker on my car, 2) pay for my classes, and 3) pay my credit card bill ( Read more... )

It's been my belief that the best way to resist the corporate appropriation of holidays is to emphasize the original intention of the holiday, no matter how illegitimate it was.
Thanksgiving is about feasting.
Christmas is about family.
Halloween is about candy costumes!
St. Patrick's Day is about getting utterly, utterly plastered.

and finally, ( Read more... )

Disclaimer: I don't need a disclaimer.  You all know me, and you know what I stand for ( Read more... )

I was tapping my Pectoralis Major muscle while listening to techno on Pandora, and reading about type conversion from float to int data types in C++, and I think all that combined in my head to dredge up a memory from high school.  Not even a memory, just a feeling like, remembering how I felt to be there.  A little stressed about the future, a ( Read more... )

( Unless you're into reading a long entry replete with big ideas and rampant idealism, don't bother. )

I think sometimes about electron orbitals. About how there's this cloud of probabilities where an electron might be, which ends up at some point being a situation where at some point an electron, that wasn't there before, suddenly is. And I think about this in regards to emotional states, when you realize that you used to feel a certain way, but ( Read more... )

I didn't tell many people about it, but I had some new years resolutions from 2008. Well, kind of. Many years ago, I tried resolutions, to varying degrees of success. Then Jujutsu started, and sensei wanted us to write down 21 goals for every new year (to comparably higher success ratios). I decided to reject that in 2008 as well, in favor of ( Read more... )

I feel ok.  Tonight, for the first time in countless nights, I have no reason to go to sleep feeling depressed.  I can barely fathom how many times, for how many reasons, I've fashioned a blanket out of jealousy and regret, and drifted off to sub-consciousness under it ( Read more... )

You know, there are days when we are absolutely nowhere.

There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed. My pain is constant and sharp and I do not hope for a better world for anyone, in fact I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no ( Read more... )