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4 in the Morning
So I gave into my urges and sent Chris a message. I felt better after. Giving into urges is something that feels good. But to my surprise Chris messaged back. I take it as a good sign. Who knows where this could lead? Maybe he is willing to give the real me a chance at friendship and join me in condemning the tyrant i was after London. I am hoping ( Read more... ) -
Is a Second Chance to explain too much to ask for?
ok... i will admit it. I Miss Chris. He is a great friend. and it kills me inside that he has reservations about me these days. All i ask is for a second chance. To make things right between he and I. Defending him today awoke something in me that has been dormant. I still want his friendship. But i want a new one. I want him to be friends with me ( Read more... ) -
Just live and let live
It feels good to see that i am not bad controlling Gavin. I had a situation at work that kinda showed me how much i have grown back into my old skin again. I know that i only talk about Chris on this because it gives me this sense of security. But a coworker was trying to tattle tale on Chris to me and get me to save him. I felt like Chris was fine ( Read more... ) -
Fall from Grace = Opportunity for Redemption
So i feel myself becoming more alive. Not like i was dead... well, i guess so, like i was dead. I spent a great deal trying to be someone i am not. All for love, respect, and adoration. I had all those things before. I guess i felt like if i acted more responsible and too good for things than maybe those things that i did not want to lose would be ( Read more... ) -
Repeat on my iPod
Still i find myself looking inward. There is a reason why you never get over your first favorite band. And mine (No Doubt...still currant fave band FYI) will always have a place in my iPod. To me, No Doubts breakout album Tragic Kingdom defines more than just an era of my life but it echoes my life in it entirety thus far. The song "The Climb" ( Read more... ) -
Just Fine
well, i have had an interesting life lately. My BFF chris and i are not really talking as much as we used to. He has this new CSUN crew and I have this new life. I have to say, i did rely on him ALOT. To be honest, i really needed it when we met. I was a sloppy mess. Mary had just left me and i was an emotional wreck. When I met Chris, i needed a ( Read more... ) -
gotta let it out some how
i have never posted in a while and i feel like this archaic form of expression will serve me well ( Read more... ) -
Never Been More MAD
I just wish it was all better
but i am tired of taking the beckseat
and if i am going to be walked all over
than maybe i need to re-evaluate somethings
shame... we were so close... i hope it does not end here
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Attention Actors
Ok Everyone ( Read more... ) -
Dont Mean To Brag
But my family freaking rocks
i am looking at our my spaces and seeing some of the funniest comment ever
i swear... good times
ya my familys kinda a big deal around here