Fall from Grace = Opportunity for Redemption
So i feel myself becoming more alive. Not like i was dead... well, i guess so, like i was dead. I spent a great deal trying to be someone i am not. All for love, respect, and adoration. I had all those things before. I guess i felt like if i acted more responsible and too good for things than maybe those things that i did not want to lose would be more secure. Gavin is a great person on his own. I mean if i had all those things by being me than i would surely lose them by not being me. I mean come on... it is only logic. But sometimes you need to fall. It reminded me that i am only human. I need to be just me. And for the first time in a while i feel like me. The bitterness is still inside. I wish i had a certain friend to share this triumph with... but like i said... i needed that fall. I am optimistic. The future holds so much... and as they say... what we lose has a funny way of finding us when we are not looking.
-Gavin
-Gavin