gotta let it out some how
i have never posted in a while and i feel like this archaic form of expression will serve me well.
i mean who uses LJ any way these days...
i am so frustrated with my best friend chris. I dont know what to do. I want to be friends but i just feel like he has given up. Like he is happier without my friendship. But he doesnt want to lose this friendship.I guess what hurts right now is that he would rather go to a rave than be my designated driver for a party. I mean i was not looking to get plastered or anything but i would like to party without having to worry about safety. I mean he would never sacrifice a thing for anyone else. It makes me feel like he is so selfish. For 2 years i gave up things for him. I lost friends and had lots of drama from him. But i felt like he was worth it.
All in all it hurts these days. I dont feel important. I dont feel good. I feel like he out grew this friendship and doesnt want to hurt my feelings.
Matt told me that i should let go. I know he doesnt want to see me in pain. But unless he wants to make amends...which he says he has no time for...but he can go to a rave... we will suffer the fate of the best friends that preceeded him.
it just hurts losing another friend... i really thought he cared about me
i mean who uses LJ any way these days...
i am so frustrated with my best friend chris. I dont know what to do. I want to be friends but i just feel like he has given up. Like he is happier without my friendship. But he doesnt want to lose this friendship.I guess what hurts right now is that he would rather go to a rave than be my designated driver for a party. I mean i was not looking to get plastered or anything but i would like to party without having to worry about safety. I mean he would never sacrifice a thing for anyone else. It makes me feel like he is so selfish. For 2 years i gave up things for him. I lost friends and had lots of drama from him. But i felt like he was worth it.
All in all it hurts these days. I dont feel important. I dont feel good. I feel like he out grew this friendship and doesnt want to hurt my feelings.
Matt told me that i should let go. I know he doesnt want to see me in pain. But unless he wants to make amends...which he says he has no time for...but he can go to a rave... we will suffer the fate of the best friends that preceeded him.
it just hurts losing another friend... i really thought he cared about me