I have a new journal:

Rin_Omoiyari

if you are interested. I think I'm done here. Done being depressed and loathsome. Time to move on.

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I miss intimacy...like, a lot. A lot a lot...

Thank you all for your support and sound logical advice. I know you've said ti all before too, but as I hope you've all experienced too, it's hard to follow logical advice when you're torn up and it runs counter to what you want. Sorry ( Read more... )

Well, on a semi-positive note, I know I don't love him anymore. I still long for what we had, but I know that won't be again and I know he is now not the person he was before. Not the person I was in love with. So, step forward? I think so.

Per comments on my friends posts, friends he met through me, but never on mine... this shouldn't bother me but it does.

So talking with a friend at work, we've worked down my biggest issue, the one that is causing all my other ones, practically. I've always known it, but to have someone else recognize it helps me acknowledge it ( Read more... )

So, Buddhism ( Read more... )

I wish I could just forget the last 7 months... I wouldn't be happy, but I wouldn't feel like this either ( Read more... )

So...do I tell him I have a date? I told him not to tell me, but his preferences were never discussed...on anything really... it was kinda like he just wanted it all to just stop and be forgotten about... If I did tell him, I doubt he'd care, or be hurt... I wish he would be though. Not for any malicious reason.... I just hope and want him to still ( Read more... )

Made an OKcupid page. Lets see if there's anything out there to give me hope in love again... or, rather, to restore my confidence that I can love again.