He's been on my mind a lot today... sometimes I wish he would just leave my head and I'd never have to think of him again, but, of course, that's not what I really want... I just want it to stop aching like this. I'd like the confidence and stability I had back...please ( Read more... )

I wonder if I ever come up in his mind randomly, the way he does in mine... and does it give him pause for a moment? A moment of reflection... I wonder...

I feel so disconnected from everyone... like I'm not even able to read people any more, and there's this constant sense that they are just being nice to my face and I aggravate the hell out of them in actuality... the idea that any affection may be in my mind... I don't feel like I can open up anymore. I can't trust. I want to run away and hid from ( Read more... )

My roommates don't know how to shop for groceries. We just spend $200 at rainbow on what could have easily been $100 work of food from cub. Too much name brand stuff, too small portions, Not enough basic items... they said they'd never seen a cart so full before and we barely had anything. Amatures. :P ( Read more... )

Life...has been up and down ( Read more... )

I feel so out of place. Everywhere...

I doubt Per and I will ever be friends again... he doesn't seem to have any interest in keeping things up and I still feel my stomach turn when I see his name... It's such a shame, he's a cool guy... kinda wish we had never gotten together so I could still be his friend. Now... it still hurts to think about him....

I just saw Imagine Me and You and I just feel filled with good feeling. For those who don't know it's a lesbian romantic comedy. ...but for some reason it was so beautiful, the love between these two women and...well, it made me think that perhaps, given the right person, I could love regardless of gender. I could be happy with someone if I loved ( Read more... )

New cute underwear :D ( Read more... )

I'm starting to hate love now. I really wish I hadn't fallen for Per sometimes, all this pain is starting to out weigh the good times ( Read more... )