I want sex ( Read more... )

I want to die again today ( Read more... )

Reply to this post and I'll tell you one reason why I like you. Then you must post the same in your journal.

Humm, well between Noah and Per I've had "a bit too close" and "a bit too distant". If nothing else I am getting closer to the type of man I want to end up with. I need someone who is close and really wants to spend time with me, but they need to know when space is important too. If they are too close and dependent on how I treat them, that won't ( Read more... )

I wish I was a telepath.
(Yes spell-check, that IS a word. I don't care what you think.)

I'm not going to kill myself. I don't know what came over me this morning... I was to the point of thinking out how I would do it (In the shower. Less mess for others to clean up.) I still believe a lot of what I said, but the overwhelming feelings of dispair have subsided ( Read more... )

I've been thinking about suicide a lot this morning. My own, that is. I'm not sure why the topic got stuck in my head, but I can't stop thinking about how awful life is. There is so much loss, nothing is permanant. You are born, you learn you grow, you love, you work... it all sounds good... but the majority of people do pointless jobs that give ( Read more... )

I am going to have trouble disassociating things with Per. A song came on from BSG that Noah showed me years ago when we were dating. I still feel a small swell of regret and remorse when I hear it. This is what I do, why i like what I like. I imprint emotions, memories, feelings into the things that I like, music, movies, games, places, anything. ( Read more... )

Things are getting better. Slowly. The pain is numbing, though it's just leaving an empty feeling. But it's a start I suppose ( Read more... )

I want to see him....
But I know it's because I want to be held and hope to win him back... which I guess means it's still too soon...
But god I want to see him... :(