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Its over...fuck! I can't keep a hold of anything I love. Its fucking crazy how much my life has fallen apart in the past 7 months. I miss her already. We just can't get along.

Almost lost her last night but I found myself fighting to keep her again. I'm glad I did though. She has no idea how much I really love her. She thinks I honestly just like the though of her being there which couldn't be further from the truth. Everythings good today so far and last night actually ended amazingly! We're leaving for the beach ( Read more... )

Just sitting at the doctors office waiting on Mandi to come out. Kinda lonely out here. Got in another fight last night and I don't even really know why. Then this morning I was supposed to meet her to go here with her and she told me right before I was about to leave that she couldn't meet me because she had to do her sisters dishes. I called her ( Read more... )

I can't sleep as usual lately. Fuck anxiety and insomnia. Anyway, I'm still falling more for Mandi to this day, but I'm so nervous. We have something greatttt, but every single time we get into a tiny fight, she mentions something about breaking up or maybe we're not meant to be together. Its like she's maybe looking for a reason to end this? Its a ( Read more... )

I still can't seem to stop worrying about everything. Im just SO fucking scared to loose the one I love again. I can't go through it again. I love her too much by now. It's so weird but there's no reason for me to think Im going to get hurt...at all, yet I still do. It has to just be because my concious. I feel terrible for the things I did in my ( Read more... )

It's been a while again. Everything has been going great. Mandi and I are soooo much closer now and we're actually together in a relationship. Im really happy again and I feel SO lucky. But I keep getting terrible anxiety. Im scared of gettng hurt for some reason...she's never given me a reason to think she would hurt me...but she still talks to ( Read more... )

Everythings getting much better between Mandi and I now. No more awkwardness. She's super sweet and cute. I saw her yesterday for a few minutes and damn did she look fucking sexy lol. Couldn't keep my eyes off her as usual. Anyway, Im hopefully going to see her today after she gets off work. She got herself a job! Something Im trying to do lol. ( Read more... )

Been hanging out with Mandi a lot more. It's getting a little complicated and Im confused on how she feels exactly. I know she likes me...but Im scared she's got the wrong idea about me with a lot of things. I've really got some feelings going on for her now. Im falling for her...kinda hard to. I keep finding myself thinking about her all day and ( Read more... )

I've hung out wth Mandi 3 times now and it's been so great everytime and gets better every time. She's turning out to be a pretty amazing girl. And she's a great kisser. Im definately getting feelings for her but not letting myself get to far with them. Im having lots of fun with her and I don't want to ruin it. She's always smiling and I love it!  ( Read more... )