fall birds were... a lot. a lot, lot. my ABA article finally hit the press after the body count ended. WSP is an uphill battle, we took the election pretty hard ( Read more... )

so i broke things off with the library/ux guy on the 19th in a way that he apparently at least understood - i didn't want him to prioritize me but he wanted me to be a priority and took pity upon my masculine soul for not prioritizing him. or something. it was weird and definitely felt like eeyore was an attentive human.... this is the strange ( Read more... )

it's not binge dating, but... this covers roughly the last two-ish months ( Read more... )

i'm a bit behind here - flew out to ca for the last almost-week of july because matt texted on a friday and said anakin wasn't doing well - i booked flights on saturday, called again monday to bump them up to tuesday. anakin was put down wednesday. so many hearts breaking. so many. it was weird, but not bad. it was hard to watch matt's anguish from ( Read more... )

my therp pointed out that i think i'm single.
and the two guys i'm dating think they're in relationships.
so there's that.

*click, click, click*

dallas - abilene - cops, former zookeepers, sean ( Read more... )

sooo perhaps it's the negativity that i can't handle. i have eeyore and cousin of eeyore in my life. and i think i want to drown my discomfort in feels. it's that weird, palm-hurting craving that just..... needs...... to be cuddled. in a good way. in a happy way ( Read more... )

a pile of new dates lately, trying to reassess what i'm looking for - trying not to stress e in the process and failing miserably. i withhold too much info ( Read more... )

smiling happened maybe twice yesterday, one half-chuckle of disdain occurred during the audubon meeting - i've never wanted to walk out of a meeting so badly as i did yesterday, and i found myself consistently wishing that i had a flask. i found the people to be blissfully unaware of how painful their lighthearted banter was - the speaker wasn't ( Read more... )

i feel like bathroom hatred and gay bar destruction have frayed the few nerves i had left after my spring dead birds. and when i thought i had some consistency with my neighbor again, he vanished - a weekend in chicago, a weekend in seattle, a lot of general absence. not unusual, but i should have picked it up a bit sooner because the trips were ( Read more... )