flusterpated
i feel like bathroom hatred and gay bar destruction have frayed the few nerves i had left after my spring dead birds. and when i thought i had some consistency with my neighbor again, he vanished - a weekend in chicago, a weekend in seattle, a lot of general absence. not unusual, but i should have picked it up a bit sooner because the trips were short and we would have normally hung out in the down time: he found a lovely distraction. so here i go again, resigning myself to..... missing a friend. probably another year of not seeing him. or more. who knows. i haz a sad. she seems fucking awesome though, so mad props to them.
i also haz a jealous. the shiny new WAS member is fantastic and she's been adopted into the fold. and i still feel like an outsider, except for alice. t/g for alice. i hope i never manage to run her off.
as for new WAS? she's... me in another life, from what i can tell. if i'd married tim. that's a brain warp right there, haven't thought about tim in forever. still just want to hug the crap out of him. i hope he's doing well, prin was hell on him.
so anyway, i think part of my funk is largely the zero trips to north bay in forever, the 0.02% time spent birding, the zero ebirding, and the time crunch of going to bed too late, having food issues (because 600 calories that one day was NOT ENOUGH, and 800 should be doubled to stay sane), being consistently in low to mid levels of pain and forgetting that ibuprofen exists, being dehydrated comparatively, and overall just....... fffffffff.
i also haz a jealous. the shiny new WAS member is fantastic and she's been adopted into the fold. and i still feel like an outsider, except for alice. t/g for alice. i hope i never manage to run her off.
as for new WAS? she's... me in another life, from what i can tell. if i'd married tim. that's a brain warp right there, haven't thought about tim in forever. still just want to hug the crap out of him. i hope he's doing well, prin was hell on him.
so anyway, i think part of my funk is largely the zero trips to north bay in forever, the 0.02% time spent birding, the zero ebirding, and the time crunch of going to bed too late, having food issues (because 600 calories that one day was NOT ENOUGH, and 800 should be doubled to stay sane), being consistently in low to mid levels of pain and forgetting that ibuprofen exists, being dehydrated comparatively, and overall just....... fffffffff.