Okay, the last few days have been way more than hectic. I don't even know where to start, but I suppose my birthday would be a good place. One of the more positive things that have happened.
As far as your birthday present goes...didn't really see much point in getting you some random thing that you might not like when I knew you needed stuff for your house, that could actually serve a purpose. and it's moments like this that I realise just how much my parents have rubbed off on me...*laughs* I'm just glad you liked everything, Faith. And as far as not getting you a gift goes? Like I told you, the thought never even entered my brain. Doesn't matter that we don't know each other that well yet, we will. That's all the reason I need to make the first birthday that I'm friends with you a special one
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Sounds like you have really great parents, and thanks... I mean.. It was special having you there let alone the gifts. It was just... - the birthday was amazingly special in general. Best one ever
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What is with us and the giant entries that ate Tokyo? *laughs*
I'm sure I said this earlier, but I'm really glad your birthday was so great for you, Faith. *smiles* I guess it was completely silly of me to worry about you liking that necklace, hey?
Saturday was so terrible on so many levels, and I'm right there with you on the wiping it from existance. I'm sure someone could figure out how, but the fallout from actually doing that is so not worth it
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Well, I started writing... and then it ended up being longer than I thought it would be - and I think that part was just on my birthday. Though Saturday was the longest...
Again, it's a gorgeous necklace. I love it.
There's a fallout from wiping a day out of existance?
I kinda figured as much. I wouldn't want to put you in the middle of anything, really. We're a pretty complicated family, huh?
I'm not trying to push... and I'm sorry if when I was talkin' to you it felt like that. It's just - I didn't even know that I had this whole other family that actually existed, and dispite what I've heard about them being not the greatest (which I'm positive is true) there's still this part of me that is going, "It's still family, and it's my family." - Well, more blood relatives at the very least. But, I get it. There are things that happened - before my mother died... It's hard to even think about sometimes. And even worse? I've been thinking about it a lot lately.
But, really liking having a sister. Well, having you as a sister.
Yeah...a lot happened this weekened...it just looks like even more written out on the screen like that.
I'm glad.
If the spell for some reason got reversed and people found out, yeah, there tends to be...
We really are...and yet in someways less complicated than we could be. What is that about?
I know you're not trying to push, you're just all curious. Unfortunately for me, it's bringing up stuff I'd rather forget happened, which is just kinda stressifying. But I do understand the curious. But yeah, as far as I'm conserned, by Dad? Donny? I may share dna with them...but they are not people that I want in my life, or anywhere near my wife or daughter. If you ever need to talk...I'm here...
It really does look like a lot more when it's written on the screen.
And it was a good day for any of us. Taking a vote I'm sure that people would rather that it didn't exist.
I don't know about the less complicated. We're pretty darn complicated.
I get that. I really do. I mean, as much as I miss my mom sometimes? Having her around everybody... I mean, It just wouldn't be good in any way shape or form.
Uh huh...I have no idea where to even start with this Faith...but I'll do my best. Can I request no more entries covering 3 so insanely full days?
I'm so happy you're happy with how your birthday turned out, given how you were so convinced it was a disaster waiting to happen. But you know, somehow compared to Mike's present, mine looses all it's coolness. *laughs*
Can we just forget that Saturday ever happened? I think we'd all just be better off to move on and just be happy Ethan's gone, and probably too scared of what'll happen to him if he shows up again to do anything for a really long time.
To actually try to cover some of what you said regarding the day, though...
The connection thing, as awesome as I know it is, definitely has it's downsides when you're fighting. Been there, done that. Actually...the only true fight Mike and I have ever had was out of my insane, pointless jealousy of Cassie...(sad thing? I don't think I've ever totally been able to push those 'what if' thoughts out of my mind entirely. Which isn't to say I
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And when in those three days did I have time to post?
My birthday wasn't bad at all... definately the best one I've had. Lava lamps are pretty cool for the record. But... yours was all meaningful.
I think forgetting would be nice.
And when you're constantly hearing each other's thoughts, you almost skip the actual yelling part, and just keep arguing... I get it, trust me. It in a nutshell.
I'm trying not to worry, but things? Not as easy as just 'don't worry.'
See... I get his worry. It's just I was flipping too, and that didn't help.
I didn't mean it like that, Faith...I just meant that there was so much to reply to that I just kind of stared at it for a long time, not knowing what to say.
Thanks. I actually prefer my glitter lamps...but I think that's 'cause Lava lamps look really creepy to me when I look at them for too long. *laughs*
Like I said, I do get it...I guess we're probably the only ones that do, though.
I know, Faith...I get that, but what is freaking out constantly accomplishing that's good? Anything? *sigh*
I know...
Apparently. Said it was too long...that I had to edit it. So I made it two instead.
Comment 2. Shorter entries make it easier for me to actually reply to. lol.dawnie_summers_April 28 2004, 15:11:03 UTC
Okay...have to say this now, sorry. FAITH? SNAP THE HELL OUT OF IT!!! There's no way in the world Xander and Anya are gonna get back together. Sure, maybe they still love each other. Okay, fine. They were together for 4 years. It's kinda expected that those feelings don't just turn off completely because they aren't together anymore...but they can change in to something platonic, and they can still care about each other. Buffy and Angel? Haven't been together in that long...they've both moved on, and love Spike and Cordy respectively more than anything in the world. But they still love each other on some level. Everyone can see that. When you share that much, it's pretty much expected. As far as Xander not wanting to sign the divorce papers...I know my surrogant big bro pretty well, and I don't honestly believe for one second that the reasoning behind that is because he wants to get back together with Anya. It's exactly like he said, he's afraid that if he does, it'll cost him his son. I love and adore Anya...she's my family as much
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Re: Comment 2. Shorter entries make it easier for me to actually reply to. lol.faithcbApril 30 2004, 02:11:12 UTC
Wasn't sayin' that they were going to get together... and by the way? My thoughts? As crazy as they may be are still my thoughts and feelings. Not like I'm oblivious.
I get why Xander doesn't wanna sign off those papers. Really don't need the explination. But in the long run? It doesn't matter whether he does or not. 'Cause Anya can do pretty much what ever the hell she wants to. If she doesn't want Xander to see their son she'll find ways. Postponing signing things aren't going to help.
I get that I'm jealous. I can't really help that. I've never been more in love in my life and with that come this whole 'I've never been more freaked out.' So, I'm a little paranoid. I get that it's not helping... but I can't change what I feel.
It was a stupid comment. I get that too... but it was upsetting. That's like Mike openly comparing you to Cassie.
Dealing as if there's nothing to deal with doesn't make things go away. It makes things worse.
And I really better stop replying to this, because I'm just getting upset.
Re: Comment 2. Shorter entries make it easier for me to actually reply to. lol.dawnie_summers_April 30 2004, 02:28:25 UTC
Didn't say you were...just...that particular one? Seems to becoming more and more frequent, and I can't help but think you're doing nothing but scaring yourself
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I'm sure I said this earlier, but I'm really glad your birthday was so great for you, Faith. *smiles* I guess it was completely silly of me to worry about you liking that necklace, hey?
Saturday was so terrible on so many levels, and I'm right there with you on the wiping it from existance. I'm sure someone could figure out how, but the fallout from actually doing that is so not worth it ( ... )
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Again, it's a gorgeous necklace. I love it.
There's a fallout from wiping a day out of existance?
I kinda figured as much. I wouldn't want to put you in the middle of anything, really. We're a pretty complicated family, huh?
I'm not trying to push... and I'm sorry if when I was talkin' to you it felt like that. It's just - I didn't even know that I had this whole other family that actually existed, and dispite what I've heard about them being not the greatest (which I'm positive is true) there's still this part of me that is going, "It's still family, and it's my family." - Well, more blood relatives at the very least. But, I get it. There are things that happened - before my mother died... It's hard to even think about sometimes. And even worse? I've been thinking about it a lot lately.
But, really liking having a sister. Well, having you as a sister.
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I'm glad.
If the spell for some reason got reversed and people found out, yeah, there tends to be...
We really are...and yet in someways less complicated than we could be. What is that about?
I know you're not trying to push, you're just all curious. Unfortunately for me, it's bringing up stuff I'd rather forget happened, which is just kinda stressifying. But I do understand the curious. But yeah, as far as I'm conserned, by Dad? Donny? I may share dna with them...but they are not people that I want in my life, or anywhere near my wife or daughter.
If you ever need to talk...I'm here...
Right back at you, Faith, trust me *smiles.
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And it was a good day for any of us. Taking a vote I'm sure that people would rather that it didn't exist.
I don't know about the less complicated. We're pretty darn complicated.
I get that. I really do. I mean, as much as I miss my mom sometimes? Having her around everybody... I mean, It just wouldn't be good in any way shape or form.
Talking might be good.
*smiles back*
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I'm so happy you're happy with how your birthday turned out, given how you were so convinced it was a disaster waiting to happen.
But you know, somehow compared to Mike's present, mine looses all it's coolness. *laughs*
Can we just forget that Saturday ever happened? I think we'd all just be better off to move on and just be happy Ethan's gone, and probably too scared of what'll happen to him if he shows up again to do anything for a really long time.
To actually try to cover some of what you said regarding the day, though...
The connection thing, as awesome as I know it is, definitely has it's downsides when you're fighting. Been there, done that. Actually...the only true fight Mike and I have ever had was out of my insane, pointless jealousy of Cassie...(sad thing? I don't think I've ever totally been able to push those 'what if' thoughts out of my mind entirely. Which isn't to say I ( ... )
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My birthday wasn't bad at all... definately the best one I've had. Lava lamps are pretty cool for the record. But... yours was all meaningful.
I think forgetting would be nice.
And when you're constantly hearing each other's thoughts, you almost skip the actual yelling part, and just keep arguing... I get it, trust me. It in a nutshell.
I'm trying not to worry, but things? Not as easy as just 'don't worry.'
See... I get his worry. It's just I was flipping too, and that didn't help.
They have limits?
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Thanks. I actually prefer my glitter lamps...but I think that's 'cause Lava lamps look really creepy to me when I look at them for too long. *laughs*
Like I said, I do get it...I guess we're probably the only ones that do, though.
I know, Faith...I get that, but what is freaking out constantly accomplishing that's good? Anything? *sigh*
I know...
Apparently. Said it was too long...that I had to edit it. So I made it two instead.
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You look at lava lamps for long periods of time. *has yet to use hers*
Yeah... kinda bites.
I wasn't /trying/ to freak out. The spell? Didn't help.
Makes sense. I'm going to reply to the second half too.
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There's no way in the world Xander and Anya are gonna get back together. Sure, maybe they still love each other. Okay, fine. They were together for 4 years. It's kinda expected that those feelings don't just turn off completely because they aren't together anymore...but they can change in to something platonic, and they can still care about each other. Buffy and Angel? Haven't been together in that long...they've both moved on, and love Spike and Cordy respectively more than anything in the world. But they still love each other on some level. Everyone can see that. When you share that much, it's pretty much expected.
As far as Xander not wanting to sign the divorce papers...I know my surrogant big bro pretty well, and I don't honestly believe for one second that the reasoning behind that is because he wants to get back together with Anya. It's exactly like he said, he's afraid that if he does, it'll cost him his son. I love and adore Anya...she's my family as much ( ... )
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I get why Xander doesn't wanna sign off those papers. Really don't need the explination. But in the long run? It doesn't matter whether he does or not. 'Cause Anya can do pretty much what ever the hell she wants to. If she doesn't want Xander to see their son she'll find ways. Postponing signing things aren't going to help.
I get that I'm jealous. I can't really help that. I've never been more in love in my life and with that come this whole 'I've never been more freaked out.' So, I'm a little paranoid. I get that it's not helping... but I can't change what I feel.
It was a stupid comment. I get that too... but it was upsetting. That's like Mike openly comparing you to Cassie.
Dealing as if there's nothing to deal with doesn't make things go away. It makes things worse.
And I really better stop replying to this, because I'm just getting upset.
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