Finally 21.

[faithcb]

Happy Birthday to me.

Okay, the last few days have been way more than hectic. I don't even know where to start, but I suppose my birthday would be a good place. One of the more positive things that have happened.

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[faithcb]

Sounds like you have really great parents, and thanks... I mean.. It was special having you there let alone the gifts. It was just... - the birthday was amazingly special in general. Best one ever.

Things are pretty good now.. a lot calmer. We've been having a few moments that we just forget how to talk to the other like things have changed, but overall not as bad as Saturday - though if it was... I'm sure everyone else would no. We weren't exactly having quiet arguements. I think I'm more paranoid then Xander is. Maybe my nerves are all just still jittery.

Maybe Dawn and Mike have the right idea 'bout you and Xander spending some time apart, so that you can breathe? I mean, they seem to get along perfectly well, so maybe they're speaking from experience?

I know I shouldn't be jealous about that whole thing. I know it's mostly irrational. I have a whole bunch of thoughts that just meld together. In the end it's just that I love him so much and I want to be entirely selfish and have him just to me. Pretty sure that's the part of my brain to makes me irrational. I want him to be happy and be able to be around both of his children. It would make him happy... and he should be happy. He's going to be a great father too.

Hey, maybe you have a long lost sibling out there. I mean. I grew up thinking I was the only one... Or maybe, you're an only child with surrogate siblings. *smiles back*