Finally 21.

[faithcb]

Happy Birthday to me.

Okay, the last few days have been way more than hectic. I don't even know where to start, but I suppose my birthday would be a good place. One of the more positive things that have happened.

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[dawnie_summers_]

Uh huh...I have no idea where to even start with this Faith...but I'll do my best. Can I request no more entries covering 3 so insanely full days?

I'm so happy you're happy with how your birthday turned out, given how you were so convinced it was a disaster waiting to happen.
But you know, somehow compared to Mike's present, mine looses all it's coolness. *laughs*

Can we just forget that Saturday ever happened? I think we'd all just be better off to move on and just be happy Ethan's gone, and probably too scared of what'll happen to him if he shows up again to do anything for a really long time.

To actually try to cover some of what you said regarding the day, though...

The connection thing, as awesome as I know it is, definitely has it's downsides when you're fighting. Been there, done that. Actually...the only true fight Mike and I have ever had was out of my insane, pointless jealousy of Cassie...(sad thing? I don't think I've ever totally been able to push those 'what if' thoughts out of my mind entirely. Which isn't to say I don't trust what Mike feels for me. I just can't help but wonder...had Cassie not died, would we even be where we are?) *sigh* picked up on a thought I probably shouldn't have, and couldn't let it go. And when you're constantly hearing each other's thoughts, you almost skip the actual yelling part, and just keep arguing... I get it, trust me.

As far as the possibility of the spell not really changing much for you and Xander...how can you even think like that, Faith? Sure...more often than not when it comes to his behaviour regarding my life, I want to kick his ass, but I can see how much he loves you. As someone who's seen him with every girl he's ever dated, it's safe to say that dispite whatever problems you two may have, he'd do just about anything to keep you safe. So don't worry so much, okay? Mr. Commitmentphobe is improving in leaps and bounds since you two got together. He doesn't seem as afraid to actually build a life anymore. Scared that something might happen to you, sure...but I think he would be either way...he loves you. You're a slayer. That's a little on the extreme high risk side (and this is coming from someone who's sister has died twice somehow). For that reason alone, his being scared that something is going to happen to you is totally justified. He'd be scared even if you guys were just friends...just like he gets scared when something happens to Willow or Buffy. Bad things happen people he loves, and Xander panics...he's done it for as long as I've known him.

As for his little freak out over hobby suggestions...maybe teasing when he was already a little ball of stress wasn't the way to go...'cause Xand...Great guy. Doesn't take well to jokes when upset. Kinda looses that little filter that allows him to be able to tell when people aren't being serious. Which is insane, given that he's usually such a goof himself, but it's what seems to happen.

Continued in comment two. 2000 characters over the LJ limit. GAH.

[faithcb]

And when in those three days did I have time to post?

My birthday wasn't bad at all... definately the best one I've had. Lava lamps are pretty cool for the record. But... yours was all meaningful.

I think forgetting would be nice.

And when you're constantly hearing each other's thoughts, you almost skip the actual yelling part, and just keep arguing... I get it, trust me. It in a nutshell.

I'm trying not to worry, but things? Not as easy as just 'don't worry.'

See... I get his worry. It's just I was flipping too, and that didn't help.

They have limits?

[dawnie_summers_]

I didn't mean it like that, Faith...I just meant that there was so much to reply to that I just kind of stared at it for a long time, not knowing what to say.

Thanks. I actually prefer my glitter lamps...but I think that's 'cause Lava lamps look really creepy to me when I look at them for too long. *laughs*

Like I said, I do get it...I guess we're probably the only ones that do, though.

I know, Faith...I get that, but what is freaking out constantly accomplishing that's good? Anything? *sigh*

I know...

Apparently. Said it was too long...that I had to edit it. So I made it two instead.

[faithcb]

Kinda wrote a lot, didn't I?

You look at lava lamps for long periods of time. *has yet to use hers*

Yeah... kinda bites.

I wasn't /trying/ to freak out. The spell? Didn't help.

Makes sense. I'm going to reply to the second half too.

[dawnie_summers_]

Just a bit, yeah...When I make long entries, they all kinda tend to be the same topic...and most of the really long ones tend to end up for my eyes only, anyway.

Sometimes, if I was really bored, I used to. The Glitter lamps make pretty sparkle patterns all over everything though. *smiles*

Well, when we're fighting with them, sure it bites...but it also has it's upsides. Private conversations in a room full of people? Definitely a plus.

I know Faith...I'm sorry, I just wanted to help. I hate seeing you so unhappy.

Good.

[faithcb]

And my long entries are about everything...

Glitter lamps sound cool... but then again, your room? Completely hip.

Agreed.

Don't like being unhappy either.

[dawnie_summers_]

Uh huh...You talk about everything all at once.

Thanks *smiles*

I didn't think you did.

[faithcb]

Don't I tend to normally?

Welcome.

[dawnie_summers_]

A lot of the time, yeah, I guess so...*laughs*

*smiles*