Well, a lot has happened in the past few weeks. As of right now, I cut things off with my ex-girlfriend and we're going to try not talking online for a week or so. She was really hurt but I honestly think it's the best for both of us to do it. It was insane the amount of back and forth we were doing to where it was just making me insane and I felt ( Read more... )

I froze comments on the post below because I exagerrated some things which would throw off the kinds of comments I'm going to get. I mainly wrote it to get out my frustrations, because I felt like I was going to blow otherwise. I appreciate the support of everyone who's read my posts and commented, and I promise I will figure this out soon.

Things have gone up and down radically as usual, seemingly out of my control. I go from feeling great to feeling like I've reached the end of my life. I'm starting to think this might be a problem with my brain rather than something I'm doing consciously. Either way, I want to take care of it soon because it's fucking up my life ( Read more... )

I'm tired of this stupid journal ( Read more... )

soooo just about everything worked out today. My girlfriend accepted that I'm trans, I accepted that I'm bi and there's nothing wrong with that, and both of us resolved to keep an open mind and do whatever we need to be with each other. If only I knew if I've got into the college I applied to transfer to! Then absolutely everything would be great ( Read more... )

My girlfriend has threatened to kill herself tonight after a long conversation with her about the stuff I posted below. She said that she can never love someone as much as me and that life isn't worth living if we can't be together :(. I'm really afraid she might do it - she has already hurt herself, at least from what she's told me..to what extent ( Read more... )

I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. I'm a cold, horrible person ( Read more... )

...here are some thoughts I have about what happened last night ( Read more... )

I got in a fight with my girlfriend tonight. She was asking me how I can say that I love her and then just bring up the guy thing to her. She wanted to know how I could say that I don't know how I'm going to feel in the future and might have to leave if the feelings for guys get too intense. I don't know what to say - I don't understand my feelings ( Read more... )

It's been over a month since I posted here, and a lot has happened (mostly bad, unfortunately ( Read more... )