the internet is stupid.

i close my eys and the sensations of the last few days come rushing back to me. the feel of the rain on my body, soaking my feet, the sound of my car stalling, the sound f the bong bubbling, the tastes of 6 different beers, and a burrito, and a stir fry made with friends and love, the sound of pods clicking with ever step, alien languages skribbled ( Read more... )

its just after the first hit and everything is already fading out. its like white noise on a tv, just a gray static, a faint hum, living just beneath my perception. but when i close my eyes its there, waiting for me ( Read more... )

from a draft i never posted on the internet that i was completely unaware of until now ( Read more... )

the drive back home from joes is lovely, and lonely when i only have the rockband soundtrack playing through my head to keep me company. as i brood in my head i reach the same conclusion i always reach when i have a story to tell and no one to tell it to: i miss being in love. i miss having someone to call at any time, someone who cares enough to ( Read more... )

i'm trying to read crime and punishment, but i can't focus. i have been having horrible, horrible dreams. they seem so real, the consequences of a life lived irresponsibly, an alternative future that varies only slightly from reality. these dreams are the terrifying possibilities of my life. i hate it.

today can be very fun, and easy. i hope it is

my weekend has been out of control awesome fun. i'd like to thank everyone, ever, because my life is pretty awesome. im enjoying the lack of smog, and am about to enjoy a breakfast with no hog.

so are you coming tonight ( Read more... )

i didn't expect you to pick up. i called anyway. and somehow i cant help but be kind of angry, or maybe just disapointed. disapointed that i tried for so long knowing things would be exactly like this. but if everything ive done hasnt earned me you unfaltering, eternal love and affection, then certainly ive earned the right to be angry with you. ( Read more... )

its been my birthday for almost 7 hours now.
the parade should start any minute now...