letter ill never send(this is what the internet is for, right?)
i didn't expect you to pick up. i called anyway. and somehow i cant help but be kind of angry, or maybe just disapointed. disapointed that i tried for so long knowing things would be exactly like this. but if everything ive done hasnt earned me you unfaltering, eternal love and affection, then certainly ive earned the right to be angry with you. but this is it. im done trying. im done helping you out of fucked up situations only for you to dissapear again. im getting out of this...whatever it can be called, because it sure as hell isnt a relationship. this is a one way street paved with my naive beliefe that i could make you fall for me. humor me for a second. what did i do wrong? what didnt i do? was i not enough of an asshole? was i not controlling enough? did i not manipulate you into sex? i am the nicest guy you never dated and i am so done trying to be anywhere near you its not even funny. its just upseting. because im still to nice of a guy to ever tell you this. and youll go on with your life, and probably remember me as the guy who would be there for you in an instant. i hope to god im not that guy anymore. im realy trying not to be.