Fic: "My Body Betrays Me," Chapter Five. Non-con Kurt/Karofsky, Kurt/Blaine -- COMPLETE!!!!!!

[emilianadarling]

I can't believe it's over, you guys. I almost don't want to post this, so that the experience of sharing "Body" with you all will still be happening. But all things must come to an end.

I'm so, so happy to have shared this experience with each and every one of you. Thank you for being such incredible individuals and giving me such an amazing

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[cassidychase]

I'm just gonna post a comment here, so that the final one doesn't get too freaking long, and cause there is so much to say as it is

[cassidychase]

I dunno, I wasn't so into Burt's reaction to Blaine, just because I didn't get enough of a solid emotion from Burt. I know it's told from Blaine's perspective, but a more definite response would have been good. And I NEED Burt to thank Blaine for getting his son out of that god awful mess! Does Burt know that?! Did Kurt tell him?!

I'm glad Blaine has distractions in the form of school etc, poor bb still waiting for Kurt to reply his message. Just... ;____;

I am going to continue now, will wait for your epic response as usual XD <3 ;__; Yea, still crying....

[emilianadarling]

Hmmmm. When it comes to Blaine and Burt's scene, I think we have to remember that the story Kurt's probably told his dad is the extremely emotionally abbreviated version, and Blaine probably doesn't fit in there very prominently. Burt doesn't have the same emotional connection to Blaine that we do as readers, because he wasn't there. He didn't see exactly how much Blaine did, and how much he struggled, and how much he sacrificed for Kurt to be okay.

Because this something similar to the story Kurt told his dad: "This horrible thing happened to me, and I couldn't tell you. Luckily a friend at school found out. I went to confront Karofsky, and my friend came with. Things got serious, it was a close call, and Karofsky ordered me to do forget everything and I broke the curse because I just couldn't. The friend and I aren't talking right now. And here I am."

That story doesn't give you any idea how important Blaine was in everything. Kurt just didn't talk about Blaine very much in detail: Blaine in general was a very emotionally

[cassidychase]

Yea, totally get that Burt prob wouldn't have known just how much Blaine had gone through, just wish that he did you know? Blaine goes through so much for Kurt, just wish that he could get some more recognition out of it?

But WHAT THE HELL am I talking about? Of course he got something out of it. SOMEONE NAMED KURT!! He got back his best friend, newly freed forever from his stupid stupid curse and they are gonna go off into the world together and be happy forever and ever!! *squee! *cue yet another love sick sigh XD XD

And don't worry bb, I totally get that Kurt would have given an extremely watered down version to everyone else, and he and Blaine are the only ones (well, not counting Karofsky of course) who know the real full story. In a way it makes the memory(read: nightmare) special I guess, and it will bond them for life, no matter what happens between them in the future.

[emilianadarling]

FFffffffffffffffffffffff---- X_X This is what happens when I edit chapters at 4:00am. Sorry about that!!! *fixed* *embarrassed*

Thank you for catching those, and I hope you're enjoying despite my silly typos. ^-^;;;;;

[emilianadarling]

Aha, thank you very much! :) I'm glad that you're enjoying it so much! I know that I shouldn't be the one to do all the editing myself, especially at absurd o'clock in the morning, but I'm actually pretty possessive/protective of the stuff I write. Like, I have a hard time letting other people look over it before I publish it. ^-^;;; Silly Emiliana is silly. But thank you very much for those catches!

[missgoalie75]

It’s frustrating beyond words, not knowing what to expect. He hates having to go through all of it more than anything else, wishes he could just skip this bit and get over everything and be done with it already. The way you worded this experience is fantastic - dealing with any sort of loss isn't clean cut and you portrayed that wonderfully.

Okay, I really want to go back to reading, but I just wanted to point that out =)

[emilianadarling]

Oh, thank you ever so much for highlighting that paragraph. <3 You're so right in that dealing with loss is never, ever clean cut. And it can be frustrating, and confusing, and sometimes you just wish that you didn't have to. The desire to just want to skip the whole thing and go back to being normal is so strong, I find.

<3 Thank you so much, and I hope you enjoy the rest!

[subitodolcediva]

NO! NUH-UH! NO WAY! None of these are i reference to your latest piece but rather my frustration of coming across it ten minutes before I have to be on the drill field for evening marching block. Uber sadness! But know, my dear, that my love of you and your story shall help me conquer the heat, the screech of 38 piccolos and an hour of fundamentals. Can't wait to read it! XD

[emilianadarling]

Ahahahahaha!!! :D Oh my gosh, that sucks! I'm sorry, hon! (Also, you're in marching band?? I used to be in marching band! It was Canadian-style, so quite different from American-style, though, I think. BUT THAT IS SO COOL I MISS IT!! :D) I'm pleased as punch to help you conquer the wonderful-but-sometimes-exhausting-and-ever-amazing marching practice. <3

Definitely let me know what you think when you get a chance to read!! I can't wait to hear from you! <3 :) <3

[loonylevicorpus]

Nothing matters because it’s over, it’s all fucking over. He ruined this like he ruins everything.

Like he was willing to ruin him.

You’re weak. The words pound in his ears, high and beautiful and horrible. You’re weak, and awful, and you repulse me.

[emilianadarling]

ANOTHER LIVEBLOG FROM LOONEY! :D :D :D I love these so much, you don't even know. Thank you a million for going to the trouble of writing them up!

"...but living with the fear is forcing him to think about what he has done and the hopelessness and fear that Kurt himself had felt." <--- This. This, this, this. If Dave had been caught and put into a correctional facility, in some way it would have been over. It would be finished, and he could start getting over it. With him on the run, it's never going to be over. He's always going to be looking over his shoulder, and be frightened of being found out. He's going to have to live knowing exactly what he did, and in some ways that's a worse punishment than anything. It's certainly destroying him from the inside out, in any case

[cassidychase]

Lol! was wondering about that metaphor during my second read through. The word just jumped out at me suddenly. Porcelain. I looked at it and like eyebrows went straight to my hair line. Sigh, just another physical proof of the pure epicness and amazingness that is your writing style and skills. I swaer, if I had half your talent... @.@