Fic: "My Body Betrays Me," Chapter Five. Non-con Kurt/Karofsky, Kurt/Blaine -- COMPLETE!!!!!!
I can't believe it's over, you guys. I almost don't want to post this, so that the experience of sharing "Body" with you all will still be happening. But all things must come to an end.
I'm so, so happy to have shared this experience with each and every one of you. Thank you for being such incredible individuals and giving me such an amazing ( Read more... )
I'm so, so happy to have shared this experience with each and every one of you. Thank you for being such incredible individuals and giving me such an amazing ( Read more... )
"...but living with the fear is forcing him to think about what he has done and the hopelessness and fear that Kurt himself had felt." <--- This. This, this, this. If Dave had been caught and put into a correctional facility, in some way it would have been over. It would be finished, and he could start getting over it. With him on the run, it's never going to be over. He's always going to be looking over his shoulder, and be frightened of being found out. He's going to have to live knowing exactly what he did, and in some ways that's a worse punishment than anything. It's certainly destroying him from the inside out, in any case.
And oh, I thought that line might hit you a bit. :( *hugs* I love Blaine's mum so much, actually, and I think that in my headcanon he takes after her in a very profound way. And she loves him very much -- both his parents do, in my head, even if his dad isn't always so good at showing it.
And oh, Burt. :( I'm completely with you: because of Kurt's condition in this, he's only ever really been able to have meaningful relationships with his family. Finn and Carole are new additions, too, and his mother's gone. So Burt is the only living person he's been able to be 100% himself with before, to be truly intimate and close with. Karofsky took that away from him, and now he has it back again. And poor Burt: having his son finally have a chance at a normal life again is so, so powerful for him. Because he hasn't just been sad at what Kurt's missed out on already: Burt has raised his son already grieving for everything he was going to miss. Every career that was too dangerous, every person who he shouldn't get close to. Burt saw Kurt's life as endless missed opportunities, and now he gets to have every one of them. It's a very powerful moment for Burt, too, for sure.
I DID MAKE THE METAPHOR ON PURPOSE OH MY GOD YOU CAUGHT IT NO ONE ELSE CAUGHT IT I LOVE YOUUUUUUUU~! I'm not sure about all the metaphors in this (because sometimes I write something out and go "HEY! HEY, LOOK! Jesus, I'm clever. *stupid smile*"), but the porcelain metaphor was completely intentional, and I'm delighted that you picked up on it! Kurt was always cold, hard porcelain to Dave, no matter how much Dave clung to him. So glad that you enjoyed that! (I love the English nerd in you. <3 Did you go to uni for it?
It's been a few weeks since he left Dalton. :) Kurt's recovery section is kinda a big mish-mash of time, touching on a lot of aspects during those weeks. And as for physical contact: everyone reacts so differently to sexual assault. Some people shy away from physical contact afterward, yes, but not everyone. There's a whole range of responses, and Kurt is reacting in a way where he wants physical contact so very badly it aches. And I can't even imagine how horrible it would feel to WANT to have people reach out and touch you, and to have them instead shy away. For totally valid reasons, yes, but it would just feel awful. It emphasizes all the bad things Kurt can't stop himself from thinking about himself. :( Fortunately, Kurt is finally starting to let people know what he wants, which is a huge step forward.
YOU LIKED THE BURT/BLAINE SCENE YAY!!! :D :D :D
Thank you so much for this AMAZING first half of feedback -- I LOVE LIVEBLOGS, seriously, it means so much to me that you go to all this trouble and I LOVE it. I'm off to start going through the reviews for the 2nd half! <3
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