Comments | emilianadarling: Fic: "My Body Betrays Me," Chapter Five. Non-con Kurt/Karofsky, Kurt/Blaine -- COMPLETE!!!!!!

emilianadarling

Fic: "My Body Betrays Me," Chapter Five. Non-con Kurt/Karofsky, Kurt/Blaine -- COMPLETE!!!!!!

Aug 16, 2011 02:08

I can't believe it's over, you guys. I almost don't want to post this, so that the experience of sharing "Body" with you all will still be happening. But all things must come to an end.

I'm so, so happy to have shared this experience with each and every one of you. Thank you for being such incredible individuals and giving me such an amazing ( Read more... )

kurt/karofsky, fanfic, kinkmeme, glee, my body betrays me, kurt/blaine, fic

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dani_elizabethx August 17 2011, 07:07:25 UTC

Oh my Lord.
I just...I don't know what my emotions are doing.

emilianadarling August 17 2011, 21:08:18 UTC

Hello, lovely!! Thank you so much for leaving a note on every chapter; it's been wonderful seeing your responses while binging this! :) I'm delighted that you've been enjoying the story, even if it's making your emotions run rampant. Thank you for reading!

dani_elizabethx August 18 2011, 06:57:59 UTC

Well, thank you for writing it. :)

elbet27 August 18 2011, 11:22:38 UTC

This is amazing, but I'm ever so slightly depressed becaus elf all of this second hand attatchment to Kurt and Blaine. This story has just competely broken my heart and I'm just in awe, this is brilliant writing and you truly have a gift, honestly there were points when I was reading where I felt just and numb and dead as Kurt did, it was as if I couldn't continue with the story because I was just FEELING exactly what Kurt and Blaine were throughout this, I mean bravo, I am completely emotionally attached to this story and I can't seem to stop sobbing, just I hope you don't take any of that the wrong way. Yu really are brilliant and this story really is amazing, I'm just so stunned by how much this story sucked me in, it's just such a sad subject to read and "live through" I'm just. Idk bravo basically, you are an awesome writer and I need you to know that!!!!

emilianadarling August 21 2011, 09:54:09 UTC

Thank you so very much, bb! I'm so incredibly flattered that you think so highly of my writing, and of this fic! Thank you!! :D

And oh, I completely understand a little bit of second-hand heartbreak with this. I'm so very flattered that this hit you in all the ways I hoped it would, and I'm just so flattered that you felt this as much as you did. Thank you. <3 I don't take any of that the wrong way at all!!! I don't have the words to properly thank you for telling me how much you enjoyed this, hon. Thank you so very much. <3

pushplaytobegin August 19 2011, 08:30:42 UTC

I loved how Kurt realizes that the curse made hard things easier (like telling his dad what had happened). What an earthshaking conclusion to come to. I'm so glad Blaine saw Burt. Kurt's precarious emotional state is heartbreaking. I love how he gets safe physical contact now from Finn, Carole, and Burt. ETA: Also loved the scene where Burt finds out the curse is broken, "Open the car door," how hard that simple command is for him speaks WORLDS.

emilianadarling August 21 2011, 09:55:34 UTC

In some ways -- some kinda twisted, messed up ways -- the curse did make some things easier. It was a pretty solid barrier between Kurt and having to deal with making developed relationships, too. Just... oh, poor dear. And at least he gets that little bit of safe physical contact now.

Thank you so much for reading, hon!

amordemealma August 19 2011, 16:21:32 UTC

Emiliana, okay, I'm so, so so sorry I didn't respond earlier when I read this when it first came out, but I just had so many feelings that I had no idea how to put them into words and the gifs didn't seem to be enough(not to mention I used the majority of my store in the last chapter already), and i didn't want to do just a 'I have no words' response because as wonderfully flattering as those are, they're not as wonderful as a long thought out response. at least in my opinion. and you deserve the long thought out responses. so I let it marinate in my head a couple of days and now I'm ready to respond. get ready. this is going to take awhile I think. I make no apologies for the longness of this post however.

So Dave. I love how you never mention him by name anymore. he's the boy...and if I remember correctly later on, he becomes the man. Like in Dave's head he's lost all identity of himself with those words 'You’re weak, and awful, and you repulse me'. Once Kurt's told him that, he's lost all his reason to be who he is. Kurt was ( ... )

amordemealma August 19 2011, 16:22:47 UTC

Blaine. Blaine's reaction to the events of the past few days, immediate after Kurt leave's him.

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amordemealma August 19 2011, 16:23:35 UTC

Kurt. Kurt crying as he leaves Blaine. the decision to walk away hurt's him as much as it hurt's Blaine, and i love that you showed that, but still, he's not sorry he made the decision. he knows it's the right one.

His run for freedom, like when he steps outside and breathes the air, it's not just air, but it's free air. it almost gives the sense that he has never really breathed the air before, because it's all so different. it's no longer tainted. every thing is different now.

I never thought about how difficult it would be to actually tell his father about what's going on. especially since all he wanted was to run to his father the whole time, but now that he actually can...it's definitely one of those things where the curse for an instant was actually a blessing in that he had to tell Blaine and he could get it all out because of it, it made it easier. but reliving it without the benefit of the curse making him...how hard that must have been for Kurt ( ... )

amordemealma August 19 2011, 16:26:06 UTC

Blaine and Burt's meeting. I love the suspicion at first. and then the realization. his quiet acknowledgment that Blaine too must be hurting, that even though Karofsky did more of a number on Kurt mentally, Blaine got quite the raw end of the stick physically. and also, i think there might be some recognition that although Blaine was only physically abused and not sexually, it doesn't make it any less horrible, and the mental number that he'd be going through...Blaine's care on love for Kurt must have been written all over his face and his actions and Burt recognizes that. Blaine was going out of his mind not knowing what's going on with Kurt and he's going through that ultimately because of what Karofsky did and Kurt not knowing how to handle it. I think that's why Burt accepted the help even knowing that there wasn't much Blaine could do in his state. because he knew that this kid needed any sort of connection to his son, and he'd be damned if he took that away ( ... )

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I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS THE END. I REFUSE TO ACKNOWLEDGE IT. smooshysushi August 21 2011, 02:45:47 UTC

BLAINERS ( ... )

Re: I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS THE END. I REFUSE TO ACKNOWLEDGE IT. smooshysushi August 21 2011, 02:47:52 UTC

Oh fuck and I wanted to talk about Burt's reaction to Kurt calling himself a whore and I completely forgot. GAH I NEED TO REVIEW THIS STORY AT DECENT TIMES ;__;

Re: I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS THE END. I REFUSE TO ACKNOWLEDGE IT. emilianadarling August 21 2011, 11:25:42 UTC

(OMG, I needed to split my response into two parts, I AM SO SORRY I'M SO TIRED I DON'T EVEN.)

I can't believe it's the end either, bb, oh my god!!! D: I have no idea what I'm going to focus on after this, I swear. And I have no idea how anything I write can compare to the incredible, amazing, awe-inspiring experience that was "Body". (Can I just throw out there that your "BLAINERS, KURTIE, AND DAVIE" made me giggle like a mad schoolgirl? I can? Good. Because it did. And it still makes me smile. :D) I hope you enjoyed Chapter Four Part Two, bb!!! And oh my gosh, 3 in the morning!! D: Well done you for bothering to reply to this!! Thank you so very much! (I hope your trip to Wales was lovely! I've only been once, but it was beautiful. <3) Hold your stuffed giraffe tight!!

I don't even know how he's still functioning-if that was me I'd run about ten metres and then sit down and cry for ages. I can't even tell you what it is about this sentence that makes me so, so happy, but it really does. <3 Poor Dave at this point. Poor, poor Dave ( ... )

Re: I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS THE END. I REFUSE TO ACKNOWLEDGE IT. emilianadarling August 21 2011, 11:26:16 UTC

Burt's on the defensive because this is where Kurt got hurt so badly, and then this little punk with a broken nose and bruised face comes up to him and knows his name and Burt's is... understandably suspicious and Papa Bear-like, until he finds out who Blaine is. And yeah, Burt is a pretty awesome dad overall. :) And nonono, I think you're completely in the right about the fairy tale aspect. Like... Blaine is finally realizing that parents and the police and authority can't make everything right, sometimes. Sometimes, things are broken for good. And the way he was brought up just never prepared him for that. HOLE IN ONE!

HE SAID 'NO' AND HE COULD NEVER SAY NO BEFORE AND OMG THE CURSE WAS OVER. (I was freaking out as I wrote that, omg) And oh, god, my Kurt. Letting go of 'survival mode' was so, so, so hard for Kurt. Like, I could write novels about how hard it was for him to let go of 'surviving', because then it meant he actually -- as you say -- had to be the victim. He finally had to let everything catch up with him, and feel it, ( ... )