It has been a lonely summer. As I briefly mentioned, the last people I still saw regularly- honestly, the last people that I still saw at all- moved away at the beginning of June, and I have spent literally everyday alone since then, save my parents, who I am anything but close to. The closest thing I've had to a friend since that time has been the ( Read more... )

Brian says (4:28 PM):
one thing's for sure, though
Brian says (4:29 PM):
i definitely didn't just spend the last five minutes realizing the assortment of daily pills i'd laid out on my desk looked abstractly like an animal, and then arranging them until they more definitively resembled one
Brian says (4:29 PM):
i mean that'd be crazy, right?
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I think I am developing an addiction to the both of them. I use both, heavily, on practically a nightly basis, like ritual. I even catch myself looking forward to it during the slow, boring, dry days. I really don't see this habit changing anytime soon ( Read more... )

Nearly a year ago, I met a guy named Al in the online video game I allow to consume my life these days. I learned that he and I have a lot in common, both the same age, diagnosed with serious, life-threatening illness, both feeling similarly stuck and isolated. Both escaping into a virtual reality. Last week he told me that a fear of possibly ( Read more... )

I've been secluded for a very, very long time. Years. Much of the time I've been sick, and the message has been to stay away from people, from exposure. Even when that's not the case, and it hasn't been for a while, I live at home with my parents. My treatment and recovery forbid a job or further schooling. All my friends live far away, be they at ( Read more... )

I never was very strongly attached to our parakeet. In fact, usually he annoyed me with his loud screeching. A month ago, it became apparent that something was wrong. His leg wasn't moving. We suspected one of our cats had evaded our collective watchful eye. The vet we brought him to a week ago disagreed. She said that he likely was suffering from ( Read more... )

I would like to thank halfwaypretty_ for recommending the movie What Dreams May Come. She probably doesn't think that I'm reading her- most of you probably don't think I read you either- but I always am. And I value what you're writing, and I remember it. It's why you're on my friends list. Her, and all of you ( Read more... )

It's been one year tonight that I jumped to new blood and a renewed chance for survival. I feel like to write something massive would be dramatic, but to speak placidly would be to dimish something that deserves its significance ( Read more... )

Today I cried for you. You heartless bitch. I cried as I told the story, and you didn't even deserve my tears. Enjoy your fucking happiness. You've shown me that you'd level anyone to earn it. Well, you've sure earned it.

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