I'm alone, in my bedroom, drinking before 9am ( Read more... )

For most of us, we don't even notice our gaming as an addiction. There are some of us who have trouble putting the controller down. And, there are still more of us, myself included, for whom gaming is only a problem when we allow it to be. Regardless of your situation, we all need to remember games are just that: games. We need to remember there ( Read more... )

i can't write anything. my mind is racing but i can't write a thing. i just keep holding my head and staring at the keys. something is immensely wrong with me.

along that track, i had a sort of moment tonight, for the first time. for minutes, i thought, "what is wrong with me?" and stared in the mirror, and suddenly it was creeping upon me, an ( Read more... )

he's been good to her lately. That was very wise of him, and sucks for me.

You know what? I want my fucking chance. I deserve a chance with her. And she deserves one with me

Maybe it isn't love. But it's chemistry.

Sad.

We've been playing the game of hot and cold for years. I met her early on in a new school. There was this constant classroom flirting. Hell, this girl taught me to flirt. High school days ended in a date to senior prom. Afterward, we both wanted a relationship but we lost it before it could start, due to the smallest bit of miscommunication. We ( Read more... )

my journal was a lot better back in 2003. It was just generally more interesting. I was more interesting.

You know what, someday Christmas will be fucking MINE. Just ONE fucking time I will wish on a star, or blow out a candle, or write a letter to Santa, and it will be MY wish that is granted. Until them, Merry Fucking Christmas. Happy Fucking Holidays. Happy Goddamn Birthday. May all your wishes come true. They always seem to ( Read more... )

I'M SO DESPERATE FOR SOMETHING. PLEASE. SOMETHING.

Sometimes I forget what year it is. For minutes at a time. And I have to check.

Please tell me this happens to anybody else.